my.cocoon.life

latest obsession!!

2010-11-13T22:35:00.003+08:00

move aside pattinson, dan humphrey rules!! how can your resist that cute face and dry humor. bapak si dan ni pun teramat lah juga hensem..

sigh...i feel so young!!!

tick..tock..what, we're entering november?

2010-10-31T17:37:00.004+08:00

am i always the culprit for not committing to the things i pledged earlier .. it's always good to point your fingers to someone else except your self.

nothing so serious, just that i'm nearing year end and always drowned with work. have not pay attention to myself (keep reminding myself). cuti kerja banyak lagi, tak sempat nak utilize (not again!)

ok..let's get committed, more committed. few things to do before the clock tick the closing year end.
1. settling in to the new house
- bukan besar manapun rumahnya, cepatlah unpack & get it clean. perhaps justify to take a day or two off
2. learning a new chord
- come on, keep up to the new music will ya. the guitar tersadai tak bersentuh. don't wait for the right time, make the time.
3. sweat off more
- i've almost hanged up my swimming suit, i hope i don't do the same to my jogging shoes..and please, stop blaming the weather. if justifies for a gym membership, why not?

hmm....so bila boleh start?

salam aidil fitri

2010-09-15T17:44:00.004+08:00

alhamdullillah, selesai sebulan berpuasa. celebrate raya di taiping, a longer holiday with mak, mak yam, kak su sekeluarga & abang azmir.

the memorable part of this year raya is where yeyen had his first solat sunat raya at masjid taman menteri. he stayed quietly observing surrounding. by end khutbah raya, dia tertidur. apart from that, he earns a lot duit raya, thank you wan!! donned in peach, posing raya macam biasa kelam kabut sebab we posed while having tetamu berkunjung (bukan orang lain pun, kak long & family). worth every neck & back ache for all those beading work - kerja keras okay, nak siapkan baju raya!! i better wear then until koyak, baru puas hati.

anyway, selamat hari raya & maaf zahir batin to all my loyal followers (macamlah ramai, sejemput je pun).

another year wiser!!

2010-06-20T23:30:00.005+08:00

20.6.2010

mak called as early as 8.30 am to wish happy birthday. siap cakap she planned the timing carefully, as i was induced around the same time 32-years before. hehe..thank mak for the recap. she sounded chirpy as usual.

sambutan yang amat 'tak-dijangka' sama seperti ahli keluarga yang lain. since coincide with father's day as usual, tok mummy will happily fed everyone with her wonderful dish, this time 'kramouk' (i think the spelling is right) or dalam bahasa melayunye 'nasi ayam siam'. "ni kalau guna brasmati rice, lagi kick" kata tok mummy while i'm eyeing for the second helping. ayam goreng pun dah habis sebab aunty nana makan tengkok ayam, last piece).

of course, desert will be a birthday cake (what a surprise!!). kak fieza beli at baker's cottage mocha , sedap. after tiup candle dalam beberapa round kalinye seperti biasa, i sampai tak sempat buat birthday wish. mana taknye, due to consistent practise, nia is so efficient in blowing my truly own birthday candle even before we finished singing the birthday song. hish..nia niee...

anyway, it was fun. although ordinary and nothing extravaganza, i had pre-birthday celebration fun at PD the day before with the rest of the family. and i already bought myself a wonderful birthday gift last month, bling bling diamondbracelet just as i had always wished. in fact, my corelle pun dah collect, and my coach hand-bag pun dalam perjalanan. nothing too luxury, but alhamdullilah i pun berjimat cermat and my patience play a great role too in all these deal.

anyway, happy birthday my dear me. as i always tell myself, another year wiser and GOD has broughtme this far to be what i am today, and where i am today. and i'm happy with the overwhelming love showering me everyday.

p/s : perhaps, a little make-over for a start, i need to update my wardrobe with more sweet pastel colors. enough earthy-neutral color.

quick holiday-beach time

2010-06-20T16:43:00.005+08:00

- avillion PD
- 18-19 june, 2010 (penat, should extend the stay)
- red devil cupcakes (bake the night before with tok mummy, yumm)
- playing at the beach, banana boat ride (ala wipe out la kunun) and swimming at the crowded pool
- end the trip with lauk kampong at the so-not-kampong restaurant, known as hard wood cafe, seremban 2

yeyen & his cousins nothing more fun than a trip to the beach for the kids, especially for yeyen which is the first for him. next time, should plan outside school holiday and of course longer. the quorum joining dah best dah, cuma kena cari tempat hotel yang betul betul depan beach.

+best nye swimming pool nih, macam nak terjun la mama..but where's the beach??+

+bestnye, float atas kaki mama. sebab pasir ni macam geli la..+

+pekena emmil best nih. i better throw splash this water on him back. watch out+

+tak pandai nak build sand castle like i'd seen in tv. but squashing and throwing wet sand on emmil
is equally fun hehe..added the salt water, more fun!!+

girls (or moms) night out

2010-06-06T22:35:00.003+08:00

another out-dated update.

me-neer-eta & teh went for the Kelly Clarkson All I Ever Wanted tour concert at Bukit Jalil. puas hati. walaupun tak hafal semua lagu (crash practising in the car still didn't help) but it worth every Ringgit paid (erhmm..we bought the cheapest seat pun, nun jauh di belakang).
but it was really worth the fun and heat (panas siut).

below are few videos recorded live. unfortunately, suara kelly was outshined by me (he..he..). pls ignore the awful \pitching (not bad huh!) and the wrong lyrics kalau ada.

cheeky and comot

2010-06-06T22:21:00.004+08:00

what can i say, he is clearly cheeky and comot. ni pun, after he had his hair cut.

ni dia, with his hair long previously. still, his main character remains unchanged.

alahai, tembam nye. ngantuk ye sayang

mom's day not-so-guilt free treat

2010-05-09T16:13:00.001+08:00

what other ways to celebrate mother's day than to makan..makan..makan. people say, a fair treat for the sacrifices and hard day work. of course, one will not decline such a thoughful and sweet treat. but the fact of sweet treat comes also with huge calories ..* BIG SIGH*

on thursday night after beli kasut papa @dst mite (geox black male shoes off 30% down to RM 2++ je), papa dst mite belanja mama & yeyen at tgi sebab chillis penuh. still a good meal. that weekend, with eta went to bsc and had chilis. makan lagi...

i'm not a counting calories kind of person, but i have to admit i have not exercised since i left my casa condo. no more swimming and the wet season lately banyak membantut kan my intention to go jogging at klcc park after work. my pocho pocho office routine dah ber'decade' lamanya di tinggalkan. so, the guilt feeling start creeping back..

anyhow, for the benefit of me, i found below listing as very umm...informative. i love chillis, and chillis love me. and my jogging sneakers loves me even more (aikkss?).

Fajitas, Chicken (Chili's Grill and Bar)

Serving Size: 1 skillet; Calories: 330, Total Fat: 11g, Carbs: 23g, Protein: 40g

Firecracker Tilapia (Chili's Grill and Bar)

Serving Size: 1 order; Calories: 540, Total Fat: 13g, Carbs: 63g, Protein: 41g

Wings Over Buffalo (Chili's Grill and Bar)

Serving Size: 1 Serving ; Calories: 1140, Total Fat: 100g, Carbs: 4g, Protein: 54g

Monterey Chicken® (Chili's Grill and Bar)

Serving Size: As Served (1g); Calories: 860, Total Fat: 44g, Carbs: 56g, Protein: 62g

Grilled Salmon with Garlic and Herbs (Chili's Grill and Bar)

Calories: 700, Total Fat: 33g, Carbs: 53g, Protein: 48g

Southwestern Cobb Salad (Chili's Grill and Bar)

Serving Size: 1 serving; Calories: 650, Total Fat: 32g, Carbs: 49g, Protein: 43g

Chocolate Molten Cake W/ Vanilla Ice Cream (Chili's Grill and Bar)

Serving Size: 1; Calories: 1270, Total Fat: 62g, Carbs: 172g, Protein: 14g

regardless, the atmosphere did enhances the spirit of celebration even more. everywhere, inside and outside the restaurant, i can see atuk, wan, some could be great grandma with kain sarung, tongkat and wheel chair being celebrated by their younger generation family. all restaurant at bsc full house. feel nice to be appreciated. i hope i have good health to continue appreciate the elders - mak, tok mummy, tok daddy. sweet.. so, i ended finish up half of molten choc cake to myself.

yummy!!

Family Day yang gamat

2010-04-05T17:02:00.000+08:00

DATE : 20 Mar 2010
LOCATION : SUNWAY LAGOON
CONCEPT : WET & NOT-SO-WILD SUKANEKA
RUMAH SUKAN : HITAM

Antara acara sukan yang di pertaruhkan :

1. siapa dapat pancing ikan paling banyak ?

2. siapa paling ganas rebut gula gula paling banyak?

3. anak ayam mana yang pandai bertelur dengan banyak?

+aksi spontan dari anak ayam yang paling subur bertelur+

yang ni pulak, aksi mogok sebab mengantuk-tapi nak main pasir jugak. kalau ada game, sapa termakan pasir terbanyak, mesti yeyen menang.

amy seach phewiitt.....

2010-04-01T11:59:00.002+08:00

+few shots of the concert+

+pose before, during, after. watch eta's hair yang dah senget kena basah dek hujan+

+we're all wet, despite the heavy downpour and tapak kasut papa dst mite buat olympic stunt, it doesn't washed away my excitement+

+amy's new image. glittery & bling bling+

AMY SEARCH SUATU MASA CONCERT

ISTANA BUDAYA

26 MARCH 2010

i grew up listening to search and i am more attuned to the classics rock kapak songs in mid 80s than the ones during amy search gone solo. but, when eta last minute phoned me about the concert, immediately masuk you tube to get into his new collections.

although tak sempat nak hafal lagu baru like suralayar , nigina (2 days before concert baru tahu) the concert it's still a wow, on his musical journey from zaman gelap then to kelabu and putih now! i prefer the middle part and wished the ending had increased its intensity and peak with a high pitch loud screaming-long curly wig flying. but definitely an inspiring concert. worth every sen paying!

check out more on amy search suatu masa concert:

http://www.facebook.com/pages/Amy-Search/296390301202?v=photos
http://www.mstar.com.my/hiburan/cerita.asp?file=/2010/1/20/mstar_hiburan/20100119214636&sec=mstar_hiburan

+with kak miza & eta, pose after pose before the show start. orang lain rilex je. watch eta's hair yang dah senget dek kena hujan+

+gambar ngan poster pun jadi la+

tengok lampu sunway lagoon

2010-03-10T20:07:00.002+08:00

few shots taken during weekend jalan-jalan-tengok-lampu. pegi pun lewat after 8.30 pm, budak budak pun dah letih & mengatuk. berbukit pulak tu, at least i feel less guilty as i burned a lot of calories of my ayam-penyet-dinner by pushing the stroller against the track yang berbukit tu.

+sebelum & ketika photo shoot. tak sempat ambil 'after' shoot sebab emil dah balik+

+yeyen & nia at the circus carousel..sebab adult tak boleh naik the horses, terpaksa la berdiri. yeyen berani tapi takut-takut jugak la. dah la pusing, lagu circus tu pulak macam nightmare-on-elm-street +

moment of now

2010-03-05T18:00:00.004+08:00

i.n.n.o.n.c.e.n.c.e

Waking up I see that everything is ok

The first time in my life and now it's so great

Slowing down I look around and I am so amazed

I think about the little things that make life great

I wouldn't change a thing about it

This is the best feeling

This innocence is brilliance

I hope that it will stay

This moment is perfect

Please don't go away

I need you now

And I'll hold on to it

Don't you let it pass you by

I found a place so safe, not a single tear

The first time in my life and now it's so clear

Feel calm, I belong, I'm so happy here

It's so strong and now

I let myself be sincere

I wouldn't change a thing about it

This is the best feeling

It's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming

It's the happiness inside that you're feeling

It's so beautiful it makes you want to cry

Don't you let it pass you by

yeyen is two

2010-02-28T16:59:00.000+08:00

+during emmil's bday, yeyen tumpang blow candle emmil seperti biasa+

+yeyen's & his new rock&roll guitar. thanks aunty neer for the gift, and thanks to abg li for holding the cake..+

+yeyen & nia, re-positioning before wetting the candle & cake+

JOY
spilled juices and scattered laundry
loud noises from kitchen drum-banging
shapes drawn from my loose skill
watching elmo with your silent company

LAUGHTER
mama's silly frown and funny expression
papa's amusement to my ABC and shape sizes
tok mummy's attacked with her crooked tickle
tok daddy's hide & seek and treasure-hunt mission

HUGS
your warmth, your cuddle at night
i wish upon you in every sight
as a reward to my patience
i am comforted by your presence

KISSES
good nite for sweet dream
reward for being cute, being sweet
i'm adored by my family
my chubby cheek, you planted a wet kiss

CRIES
post to my biting game, i hear
merely as an act of love
sorry for the pain, cousins
yes, i do demand for attention
i admit, my crocodile tear do works
misbehaving is at times intentional

and yes, mama love
i earn what i'm wishing for
i love being me
i love to grow
the joy being 2 is just the beginning
guide me mama, together in my journey

yours truly,
from who-else,
your little munchkin

IAN ISKANDAR AZRAN

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+yeyen is recuperating his energy prior to blowing candle during unplanned visit to giant+

+wow, what a raw talent in the making!! kena start sending guitar lesson. perhaps lesson no. 1, how to hold a guitar..+

closing at 24 months

2010-02-10T19:30:00.005+08:00

Aunty Neer : Let's grow tanduk on their little heads kakaka *evil laugh*

Yeyen : Aunty Nana help.

Aunty Nana : Haha Yen....wait wait

Yeyen : Aaaaaaa eh eh

Aunty Nana : Yeyen stay there kejap, this will be a good momento picture Y

eyen : Waaaa Aunty Nana, Yeyen sangkut bwh basikal nie... *snap*snap*

Comment mama yeyen : sungguh tak membantu aunty aunty yeyen ni..

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di dalam topik yang tak berkaitan....

i hope it's just another phase. yeyen can somethimes being very..well rediculous. i have been away for 2 weeks for my BME course (so-called mini MBA version). juggling classes and project assignment, of course i am left with staying overnight at PERMATA and return only during saturday night for 1 night recovery and guilt with yeyen. with yeyen's growing aprehensive over my absence and new developed skill over 'demand for undivided attention', of course it's a challenge.

the impact, he's very clingy (sakit pinggang woo.. 13.6 kg) , bossy (..tak paham pulak tu dia cakap apa) and dificult to interpret his demand (dalam penuh drama aksi guling guling & hentak kepala kat lantai) . sigh..sayang mama..if this is the prelude of what more to come, i say.." bring on the yeyen inside you, mama will tame you".

after 3 days post to my BME programme, me & papa dst mite tak tido malam since he frequently woke up at nite, throwing tantrum to watch elmo in the middle of the nite with his eyes closed!!

baca berpuluh puluh article pun, hhhmmm....nak implement pakai psycology or law-of-attraction?

http://www.babycenter.com/0_your-22-month-olds-social-and-emotional-development-issuing_1273352.bc

meeting not-so wild animal

2010-01-02T17:57:00.011+08:00

+yeyen : my shoulder is broad enuff for that parrot papa, i'm really not impressed!+

+yeyen : are u really a strict vegetarian, mr wabbit? nah, try my finger-stick for a change+

+yeyen : he has two nostrils like me, is it deep as mine? let me check+

+yeyen : excuse me uncle li, can u keep your finger to yourself?+

+yeyen : where's mama?, she knows i want that elephant hat. don't pretend to buy other junk+

+mama : i buy you this fan ok, boleh mama kipas yeyen (or kipas mama, panas siot)+

+yeyen : ggrrr+

+ yeyen : sorry to poke you little poney, hope my big finger didn't hurt ya+

+yeyen : ha? dah nak posing balik. too bad i missed this+

+mama : yeyen, u miss all the must-watch wild animal sayang. elephant, lion, tiger pesan "kalau datang zoo setakat tengok monkey, wabbit, bird and deer, baik tak payah datang terus"+

+yeyen : gawang nye+

both still in deep sleep, dreaming...

+nia : sejak bila zoo ni sejuk macam ada air-cond? +

+yeyen : we left u with the 'bad- the sea lion'. it's chilled be'cos ur mom sew u the sea lion suit using
cheap kamdar cotton, hehehh+

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*our zoo trip di taja oleh uncle li.Siap dapat free lunch at octopus sushi.. yeyen's orange-orang utan t-shirt is sponsored by aunty fiza. Thank you uncle li and aunty fiza. nanti yeyen belanja makan fatty crab (when i'm old enough to tag along, huhuu..kalau tak kena tinggal dengan bibik)

my best 2009 moment to remember

2010-01-01T11:05:00.008+08:00

happy happy new year everyoneee....*sigh* how can time flies so fast.

my best 2009 moment to remember

1. business trip to buenos aires (hola!!) and houston (first time pegi US beb..)

best..best..best...i maximize every opportunity i had, 2 different cultures and atmosphere. but am always enjoy being in non western countries. you appreciate their raw uniqueness unlike US, way too commercialize (except US shopping brands, of course). now i dah tak travel dah tempat tempah cam ni. gi kerteh pun jadik la. jauh la jugak tu.

+hilton buenos aires (left) and lo boca, buenos (right) +

+ jw marriot and downtown houston +

2. addicted to twilight saga
in cloud nine still...oohh edward !!!

+so yummy+

3. beli rumah..

walaupun dah hampir kopak, but worth every leg exercise of more than 3 dozens of house viewing, cutting 3 trunk trees from ad property-search printing and gazillion hours (exaggerate-nye) of internet browsing and talking to real estate peep. my biggest thanks to papa dst mite selaku my dedicate chauffeur, biggest critics dan kesabarannya and little yeyen yang di seret ke hulu ke hilir (makan dalam kereta, tidor berdukung) during our house hunting trip

4. my ala tiffany-ring came true
round diamond with side stones....worth the drama and wait

5. beef lasagna and chicken masala
my culinary skill bag another resipi-terhangat award

+dah 3 kali buat beef lasagna, dah boleh tutup mata membuatnya, chewah+

+love at the first sight in islamabad (2003). setiap kali travel overseas, setiap kali tu jugak aku order chicken tikka masala nih to experience the diversified version from different countries, but fundamentally the same.
dah buat 3 kali jugak using 3 different recipes. cuma tak grill je ayam tu.
taste-wise, terangat beb. i surprised myself too+

what a milestones.

it's the best year, better than last year, polish old skill (i don't think i achieve the skill level though) - in cooking and swimming, better la now kot, with loads of improvements for next year agenda. learn a lot about real estate & property too which was zero-knowledge before.

oh yaa.. i dapat NIECE, latest addition to my family, akhirnya. NUR RAISYA SOFFEA (nama kalah artis) with aunty nana dengan sewing projectnya, akan ku usahakan dengan lebih gigih lagi untuk dapat baby girl next..hahah...will it top my 2010 new year resolution ?? will see.

the rest of my new year resolution, macam biasa, carry forward last year. eat healthily, exercise more....*yawn, boring*

my worst 2009 moment to be forgotten

aaahhh...dah lupa dah.. ada la satu dua moment kot --- part i pukul yeyen sebab dia naughty sangat, but the guilty emotion post to the action was horrible..

of course i'm in edward team!!

2009-12-21T12:01:00.006+08:00

+the more forbidden it is, the more sizzling it becomes+

+aauuwww edward, how can i not resist you..+

+ ggrrlllll..not intimidated by the half naked pack (though they stink)+

check out the link. eerrk.. yes, proud to say i'm the offical members *blushing*. the only 'twilight mom' i guess. hey, they don't have any age limit by the way and i experience the same hormonal imbalances just like the other young girls out there!!

http://www.twilightersmalaysia.com/

movie dah tengok 2 kali. buku dah khatam berkali kali. and i had sunk my teeth on eclipse... have been so indoor lately, hitting the couch and senyum sorang sorang. papa dst mite have been tolerating very well, yeyen has been an adorable cute baby vampire (repeating elmo the whole morning, of course no complaint) i can't believe i'm hitting the cherry saga peak of near-ending edward vs jacob conflict. am now remembering those chapters by hard. i'm thirst for the premier, can't afford to wait next june!!!

sigh..love makes me so hopeful and optimistic about life.

ppssttt..aik..new verb huh?

corelle ohh correlle

2009-12-21T11:49:00.003+08:00

my correlle hunting finally ended.. white flower 20pcs. best bargain so far though can only see and smell from far. shipping in may 2010, by then baru boleh touch the cool and hardness (as marble). will now start main kutu with myself (and other hallucination monsters) until pay full.

btw, those interested can follow the link. marilah beramai ramai. http://sharizacollection.blogspot.com/

psstt.. get some sense of reality will ya? go and bite yourself ..

splish & splash

2009-12-03T18:19:00.004+08:00

+ why are you so cheeky?+

funny faces of ian at aunty nana's swimming pool last weekend. such an achievement, he confidently standing in the pool but watch out, not too close mama, as i'm still balancing.

i guess his confidence was up high after the traumatic accident the day before. ian was accidently down into tok mummy nah's fish pond. and i wasn't around to monitor him ..erk..mama was too engrossed watching cooking demo (sorry sayang). shocked and soaked all wet, i guess the extra nutrien from the spirulina ooppss alga boost his pre-swimming skill too.

lepas ni yeyen swim betul betul pulak, ok.

we are in blue raya team

2009-09-30T18:17:00.006+08:00

alhamdullah..time flies fast i've completed another ramadhan though it all filled with mundane routine activities. life is getting better, pretty much excited lately thanks to my twilight obsession that sparks much passion and optimism aauuww.. i'm such a hopeless romantic person.

raya pj and taiping later (after 2nd night of raya). make acorn cookies, jam tart and lemon shortbread and the scenario is like always - assembly linen of cookies trays thanks led by none other chef mummy aizan. we re in blue - purple team. my baju kurung modern i thot looks fabulous, however the workmanship is far below satisfactory. butik kat ampang park tu memang patut di bakar jer. but baju papa dst mite is great and yeyen is average for the cheap labor from kampung (thanks wan, the stiches looks very crude though - tak pakai cermin mata ke tailornye pun?).

+biskut acorn, habis terpele'ot my neck membuat nye+

my frenzy romance

2009-09-10T13:15:00.006+08:00

+the twilight cast+

ONE : I have not been able to indulge myself into romance novel since my last novel Whitney My Love by Judith McNaught (my favorites, the best!!). the one I bought at LA airport pun dah tak tau ke mana pegi novel nye pun. sempat bukak 10 pages je.

TWO : I have not been able to spare some movie time be it at the cinema (we really have to allocate some time papa, the last at the cinema was a very traumatic and discrupted movie, 20 days (when I pregnant kan yeyen..sigh) and at in-flight movie whilst from Dubai (tak ingat - must be a lousy one)

i presume the accumulation of my romance hormance has hit the tank top- the barometer needle pun dah touch red-zone warning, this explain clearly why i have been what i am now. at least my office colleague, su rajin layan i (well, she contributes also)

T.W.I.L.I.G.H.T

never i expected i will be crazy of vampire forbidden love kind of romance. after all, it's only a junior high romancebut the impact it has on me was so...dramatic

- i watch the movie twice (which is dasyat by my standard)

- i read the novel by stepenie meyer like over and over again, repeating selected scenes again and again esp on the confession part

- i drool thinking of robert pattison a.k.a edward cullen (rambut yeyen nanti pun nak buat cam nih jugak)

+ "i am dazzled by his deep stare as well, bella... "+

- and i actualy googled him during office hours (what a crime!!! nasib baik terus blocked -forbidden website 403)

i can't wait for the twilight saga : new moon to be released!!!!!!in gact he is now in vancouver for the shoot of his 3rd twilight movies : Eclipse.

ppsstt... syok layan perasan. feel so young and optimistic.. i better get the law of attraction to work its magic on me .yeyen cam edward cullen.. ha..ha...nasib baik my phone tak canggih, kalau tak dah lama tukar wall paer dah!!!

offshore..offshore

2009-07-11T21:19:00.017+08:00

what will be the best adjective to describe an entourage of HR ladies scramming your cute lil offshore platform for an educational day trip? can't find any word specific. woke up at 4.40 am at my resort-modern room eastwood village golf resort, miri. took the bus to pulau melayu wharf where we saw dozens of our regular offshore operators waited to board the ship to respective platforms. duh.. it's not even dawn and we are all clad in yellow armageddon coverall suit, of course we caught the world attention and not to mention our brand new heavy weight safety boots (proud to wear them!). with giggle and laughter plus tonnes of camera flashes for the watch-out-men pose, it's sure a hell of experience. and this is just the prelude - we have yet to board the boat.

the boat ride was about 1 hour, thought of catching up some beauty sleep. however, the movie vantage point caught my attention. fine, missed the ending by the time we arrived, but the moment we were in the boat ..wow.. the sea view was breathtaking. i landed my foot at tukau platform with whole pride & joy. how i am blessed with mother nature, the earth is laughing from the waves, natural resources is abundance for us to exploit. praise to lord for the natural resources. the sun is scorching high, the sea view is clear blue, the wind is strong. oo.. lupa nak cakap, transfering from our boat to the mouth of the platform deck was a cute one, we have to make a jump stunt ala tarzan to reach the deck. climbing the platform stairs is another fear factor, your can't help but to look down when taking the stairs so of course rasa gayat to start datang. little fishes surrounding the platform legs makes you wonder how wonderful to see them waving hello at you.

we were indeed treated like a VIP and i must say, life is too good that you end up gaining 2 kilos for the lavish food you enjoyed at the end of the trip. what else you can do to kill the time other than locked yourself in the confined match-box bedroom. though you can have astro and dvd, still makan kat canteen aje la jawabnya. people is friendly (was informed most of them has already in 1 week stay, with testerone level reaciigh ceiling high, another week to-go, understood!!) but they are very nice people indeed.

i hope this will not be my last offshore visit. i want to expect more visits in future to remind me of 'who's earth is this?' ; praise to god, the most gracious and merciful

+ anxious (and noisy) team breaking dawn. tukau platform view from the boat. 45-minute ride was breathtaking+

+greeting (or shouting?) tukau upon arrival. transfer from boat to platform deck+

+ i think i'm up for the fear factor challenge (qualifying round je kot!). picture of my sandals, slipped off from my right food while climbing stairs to helipad for group photo. it's big-foot size doesn't help either but made other girls to squirm in fear with 'what if it's not the sandal but...' chill out, girls. the boys played futsal at the helipad (mind you, no guarding fence)+

+the educational trip is just like your petrosains tour except it is very hot, noisy and sweaty.

seen crude oil from the mother reservoir, it's carrot juice-blended-with-soil in color+

+ fraternity dinner with the rest of the team with majority not complying to the borneo theme. post to pocho pocho, managed to showcase another talent of me- dancing the graceful ngajat steps in tenun terengganu attire

(so not in theme!). nevermind, had impressed the audience with my off-tune endless

love song, they were so impressed until today+

the best birthday treat

2009-06-25T18:09:00.001+08:00

+hhmmm...memang la tak nak balik rumah ZZzz...+

as usual my birthday is more on sentimental subdued mood. i always feel that an uplifting day will enlighten my birthday mood - what more than to kick start the day with a great morning. i happen to be in le meridien kota kinabalu for my regional engagement session, and kk is my last regional round. since i'm returning home the next day (which fall on my birthday, hurray!) so i woke up early to catch the sunrise. dominating the cute pool (small though, for the hotel standard) i romantically swam by the morning sunrise. the pool is at the roof top, so the view was definitely spectacular and dramatic. sedih pun ada sebab papa dst mite & yeyen not around to cherish all this. hu...hu... to top it off, i went for sauna which was also great because no one around. (boleh buat aksi ngeri la sikit) and showering & pampering the whole morning like i actually own the place. by the end of the session, it's already 8 am and half of me was sleepy (penat from the workout & sauna), but the other part of me was roaring hungry. had a decent breakfast with su, packed my stuff and ready to leave for the airport.

ooohh...the night before was a heavy duty for my tummy. ate a lot of seafood at filipino night market. basic salt & pepper with sambal kicap cili. tapi terangkat woh!! smoking hot. before balik, beli sayur for home. hehe.. grab last pieces of leek and a bag of baby cabbage. and bungkus ABC. the afternoon earlier i managed to but keropok melinjo mentah, dried scallop (1kg for RM35) and biskut cincin. boleh tahan jugak share 1 box with su, dia siap dgn ikan masin lagi.

+jangan betulkan mata anda, the place is intended to be smoking with char-grilled seafood everywhere. food is marvelous, spoilt for choice (though all look the same from stall to stall)+

+aku tengok cili padi ni pun geram. RM1 per peket. ikan memang la murah. sepinggan tu RM10+

+it is still the same or merchandize, and as always grab few pieces (can't help it). bought 5 sets of matching crystal brooch for fraya tapi hampeh, ambik 3 sets je! ingatkan nak banyak!+

anyway, this is not my first trip to KK. but, this is the best trip eva since i'm maximizing my stay with great dinner with su, an energyzing & pampering spa to maintain my cute lil body. and the peak of the highlight non other than (ddrummm rooolllll) when i reach home, tok mummy & family buat makan makan dinner. guess what, it nasi dagang terengganu. tak rugi bangun sebelum subuh, with the olymic swimming workout i had earlier, 2 pinggan nasi dagang memang berbaloi!! thanks everyone for having the makan makan for me...

happy birthday to my deariee ME and you actually deserve this!!

to papa dst mite & yeyen, nanti kita travelling together threesome okk!!!

tugu outing

2009-06-01T15:03:00.000+08:00

sorry for the delay in updating this outing (who am I apologizing to, myself?) a sunny afternoon family outing. free & easy (but not so breezy) picnic at tugu negara. how wonderful!! kids are having fun running & playing with bubbles, and the adults eating mee goreng kak fiza and makan tit bits (keropok, cucur, sandwic & colek buah).

goodbye scofield

2009-05-20T14:01:00.003+08:00

it has been a long and quiet monday night since prison break dah habis. it has been an emotional ending. i am so addicted to prison break when i first introduced by uncle arn, glued to the screen watching back-to-back cd (skip some parts though, maklum lah cd cap X), i bought the remaining season in jakarta (together with desprete housewives). and now, all those suspense kejar-mengejar moment, scofield alluring soft-eye, his unexpected migrain (hu..hu..and of course it happen during the critical moment to anti-climax & simpul mati the twist) - what an unpredicted ending, sigh! it has been a long run for these boys and me (to follow from behind tak paham pun ada jugak). kalau di flashback from beginning, huh, before i pregnant sampai lah yeyen dah 1 year half, baru habis prison break ni. penatnye...

but it all worth it. now, i have my own scofield at home. who loves button where he can pressed & korek, who appreciate structure where he can climb and rolled over.who is equally adorable and going to be a hot stuff one day!!

sempat masuk forum prison break, yes! ivoted for the producer to continue with the 5th season!!

p/s : my ladies night tiggal tuesday night only - date with the hot girls desprete housewives. thanks papa!

what my heart desires

2009-04-30T13:48:00.008+08:00

sigh..how i am so overwhelmed with work lately. since end last year, blogging seems to be a luxury free-time activity. i don't have internet at home, can't access via office, how to have an elaborated blog essay? this is my 3rd time, blogging at the internet cafe during lunch whilst others enjoy gossiping while having a meal. nevermind, if i don't update what's new in my life, at least i must update on iskandar's development.

last 2 weeks [already 6 weeks past from published date hehe..] was an exhaustion since i was scheduled for my ACD program. i'm sure i passed the assessment (hope that extra red lipstick gave me an additional point to the panel wink..wink). but, i am also aware that due to my limitation in having hands-on-experience, the panel may not able to justify me for achieving 'skill' level. i have given my best and fully satisfied- worth every minute of long hours after 5pm study in the office. will see how the result will be.

post updates : erhmm, i tak pass sebab tak cukup evidences. duh!! as if i don't know

by the way, i am soo..happy lately. i am so inspired with the biggest loser, and have pledged to eat wisely and be more physically active. papa dust mite pun dah start balik jogging in the morning, so do i. i managed to loose some baby weight last year after started taking herbalife. now, i have to re-focus my effort to loose that remaining 5-6 kilo yang degil tu. yes!! who is the biggest looser ??? MAMA YEYEN!!!

erk..just had domino's pizza for lunch yesterday..he..he..pocho pocho here i come!!!

despite all of this stress madness, i'm churning the energy into my burning desires. i am sooo motivated to purchase a place i can call home of my own. i'm so ready, i'm so excited and have been attracting a lot of positive vibes into me. have been scouted few areas with papa dust mite, villa manja sunway SPK, glenmarie court, the serai saujana, Dijaya tropicana, SS23 Malton bangalow, SDB Ameera, Ken II to name a few . but i'm keeping few options open - landed property of equaivalent value.

to climax it all, i am and have been hunting for my new diomand ring.. rephrase - the diamond ring is hunting for my new finger. anyway, for mothers day promotion, few stores had its promotions. so, everytime i walk past the store heading toward lrt station, i will have my 2 mins glimpse of the ring on display. auuugghhhh.........

princess cut diamond with slidestones . v diamond accent triology ring . classic diamond with princess cut sidestones

and how could i not mention the crocodile-birkin handbag that i have pre-ordered. it's actually on its way!!

my fave game list

2009-04-16T13:49:00.006+08:00

+ian at kidz sports+

ian has started to walk at 13 months. he now weighs 10.3 kg. as a young explorationist, his learning horizon has now widen. playing object is as simple from his surrounding, but can be a real great learning experience.

check out little ian's top 3 favourite game list :

1. outdoor shower

- who says bath time should be indoor? you are missing the wet-and-wild fun, romantic sunset view and the undivided attention from your supporters, tok daddy, kakak noor the-camera-lady, bibik and kakak dina (who join the fun later but not shown due to PG18). even triple the fun with partner in crime non other than mr emmil haqeem himself.

2. car racing

- thanks to the red ferarri and yellow porche at home, ian is now the aspiring F1 driver. the thrill is not in the speed (sebab rumah tok mummy takder circuit untuk race) but is in the loud blasting techno-music. bangun tidur terus ignite the car and blast off with the volume. his choreography evolved as well from head-banging to semi squat arm raises left-right-left.

3. blanket hiding

- memang kelakar. since you are hiding under the blanket, a lot more opportunity for ian to bite you. normally played before bedtime prior winding down sebab senang nak tidurkan ian after exhaustion from the hard giggle.

my little ONEs

2009-03-06T23:58:00.018+08:00

preparation for the boys birthday has been long planned 2 months earlier. and within 2 months we have changed the menu, guest list like a dozen time. since it's going to be a joint party, of course it's going to be extra vaganza, at least to the birthday moms (sebab birthday boys memang tak paham pun), fun having all the families around except kak sue have to decline sebab aiman & the bandits ada sports day (too bad). although there was a slight rain in the evening, the excitement peak during candle blowing session. more photos will be uploaded ..

+tit-bits to complement the nasi berlauk, bihun goreng and roti jala. birthday pack tu

sebulan sebelum event dah siap (so excited!!). thank you all for the wonderful bithday gift..

(yg blue doggy tu i yg twist sendiri)+

+the boys with uncle azli+

+home-made kg tunku birthday cake. meriah with the little fancy helicopters+

+ birthday boys all dressed up as twins+

+splish & splash-wet & wild after party+

****************

Itsy – Bitsy fingers,

Wiggly little toes,

Teeny – tiny tummy,

Baby button nose -

Lullabies & Laughter, Lots of “baby things,” And then to fill your heart, The Love a baby brings.

Ten tiny fingers that always want to play

That never stop exploring the wonder of today

Ten tiny fingers that from the very start

Will reach out for tomorrow, yet always hold your heart.

****************

happy 1st birthday my dear emmil haqeem & ian iskandar..

to my little iskandar,

mama love you always

extra fun & fab trip - Part 2

2009-02-10T13:39:00.001+08:00

part 2 for the excitement continues..

flight from houston to buenos aires was 14 hours. had a good rest to save every bit of my energy for the next excitement. on arrival, queue for immigration was long.. oookkkaayyy... here's the real deal. but the moment i stepped into the SUV i booked, i know this is going to be a great trip. the town was humble just like any normal town. not new and posh, but average. clean with sunny sun glaring in the sun. to my surprise, the people is not as latinos as i expected. i learnt there were lots of immigrant in past days from italy and other european states, thus explain the slight tanned skin with average build. but gawd!! the guys were hot looking, slight tanned-blue eyes-dark hair just like in the MTV video clip. and the babes were all in D cup donned in tight top and shorts. very laid back. i am living in the telenovelas!

+can you imagine i actually woke up every morning to these view?. puerto madero is soo urban!
you can see here the rio de plata riverbank+

Strongly influenced by European culture, Buenos Aires is populated with 13 million people. mostly roman catholic with very little muslim population ~ 500 people which are turkish or syrian. was made to understand they have 4 mosques funded by king fadh. its port is one of the busiest in South America.

4 things i learnt and loved about buenos aires are :

a. the birth place for tango. originated from the squat neighborhood of the immigrants and lonely sailor man. daniel (our tourist guide) shared that the dance somehow evoluted from a kind of 'cheap dirty dancing'' until it is commercialized today - hot & sexy choreograph with expressive and strong foot skill!

b. Architecture is strongly influenced by Italian and French. Great historical buildings with art-deco and neo-classical style. Visited San Telmo, the oldest neighborhood with 19th century architecture, Recoleta which is an upscale district and La Boca where it is the old port district which maintain 19th century ambiance.

c. Eva Peron, the First Lady of Argentina (second wife to President Peron). She was born out of wedlock and pursued as a stage and film actress as career. She was powerful in speaking of human right which made her popular among the low income and middle class. However with the military ruling and her declining health from cancer, she died at 33 and became one of the national heroes.

d. Argentinean steak. argentina has more cows than people which explains why it's a major meat producer. the cuisine is a strong resemblance of Spanish, Italian and French. it is a meat-eater country, thus grilled meat is a staple food with beef steak and ribs as the common dish.

+now i understand why buenos aires is called paris of the south america+

halal food, as expected is limited. so, i'm also an official vegetarian by day and always look forward for dinner at the only and chic muslim restaurant at baraka.

+great food, cool atmosphere, fabulous place to hang out, i'm a huge fan of Barakaa!!!!
left to right - so-called nasi goreng with chunky beef - beef steak - tortellini pasta with spinach
& cheese filling topped with sun-dried tomato gravy, burp +

+the colourful Caminito,was explained in the past where italian immigrants paint their homes with
leftover paints they could afford+

+express tango lesson everyone?+

+the government or red building, about 200m from our hotel+

+ recoleta cemetary for the elite including evita peroni. recoleta is little paris due to its
french style - high fence, large garden residence+

buenos aires guide for dummies..

1. factsheet on the city : http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Buenos_Aires s

2. hilton buenos aires : http://www1.hilton.com/en_US/hi/hotel/BUEHIHH/index.do

3. baraka, a recommended restaurant for halal food. good reviews on baraka & other local restaurant at http://www.newbuenosaires.blogspot.com/

pssstt.. how can i not love my job?? i hope there's more to come. i know it's coming..sooNN.

fun & fab trip to Houston - Part 1

2009-02-10T12:23:00.031+08:00

what is the fun side of my job ? traveling!!though the timing has never been right as always, with ian just discharged from hospital and getting everything done with few working days left (CNY & Federal Day cuti). what the heck..who would resist such an opportunity.. mesti ramai yang akan jeles nih!!! is like indulging creamy ice cream on the warm & rich mud pie. i deserve this!

houston - a must place visit for any oil & gas staff at least among the technical engineers. i'm blessed, for being granted where i intended to go. this is going to be my first US trip. hooraay!! I never expected this soon, more so i'm here as a recruiter. arrangement has been done by Nisa, i'm just carrying it through and to manage both trips back to back.. both? ooohh, its going to be 10 traveling days!! forgot to mention the 2nd location is b-u-e-n-o-s a-i-r-e-s. yes!!! i have 34 candidates for interview for both locations and the preparation was so intense.

departure was on 7 Feb direct flight to LA with quick stop at taipei for refuel. i wasnt aware the dates coincides with CERA, so definitely you can't run away from having PTS staff everywhere - dlm lounge - flight - transit .boring jugak pegi ramai ramai ni..so awkward esp dgn big bosses. a short transit at taipei was not much but it's cute to see a small section of hello kitty area where the kids playground, waiting area and wall painting are all in pink with kitty faces everywhere. 4 hours transit at LAX, managed to grab a novel (as it's being a while from my last romance affair).

+kiutnye transit kat sini+

+ supposed to be my accompanied book to sizzle my long-cold flight, but I hardly

finished the first 10 pages. dunno where it is now. bought at $7.99 at LA airport+

arrived Houston on 7 Feb midnite - penat & lapar as expected.. checked in at JW Marriott late night after about 1 hour drive from the airport. Hazl as the driver, you are pretty sure will be well taken care off. next morning after breakfast (yang amat limited selectionnye) 1st target - to premium outlet about 45 mins drive from the hotel. bought coach. at USD 200. murah la tapi all of them are not from the current season. bila dah murah ni, macam less excited la pulak nak melaramnya considering that it has lost the exclusivity. few other brands available are carters, osh kosh, gap, kenneth cole, cole han, liz clairborne , nike, reebok, corningware overall price is definitely cheaper than kl with 30% off but not cheap as bandung cheap. selected items ada yang sampai 70% off. but, good shoes are great bargain. the guys bought cole haan shoes for less than USD100. lepas pegi kathy mills another super huge shopping area. bought some shirts for hubby. my conclusion for any US trip, bawak je duit seguni becos' that is the only fun anyway. we are so familiar with the people, the language nothing else excites me. the residential building looks great - apartment, bungalow houses with ranch area - just like in the movie. it's a big country, the highway are all in 4-5 lanes with flyover left and right. one store is away from the other. weather wise - it was very windy and sunny. so, seronok jugak wondering around.

+daily dinner menu at sheikh restaurant. memang la sedap terangkat. rahsianye ?
tu..minyak sapinye melimpah as you can obviously see..

interviews went well for the 1 & half day 9-10 feb. met micheal and alexis from worldwideworker learn some tricks from them. everynite, dinner at sheikh the halal pakistani restaurant that Hazl claimed as the best (and only halal briaani around). hari hari makan beriaani mau tak debab dibuatnye. considering i'm a vegetarian during the day, dinner is definitely a chicken meal for me (naan or briaani). but the guys are all having lamb, jangan sampai demam dah!after a hard day of interview, we went to wal mart post dinner. i guess i found my spot. this is far more better than premium outlet. shop baju yeyen (tak habis habis). his pjamas, few shirts and grab some pieces for for emmil, baby nia and kakak dina. bebudak ni jugak yang untungnye. on the last day supposed to go to macy, tapi i tak sempat as i had to pack every documents and clear all the bills. hhhmmm.. should have short more, but i was a little cautious as i have limited credit to spare. nanti, meeting bill tak settle kena tolak balik my coach bag. tak sanggup!!

Houston guide for dummies (with fat wallet) amongst others..

1.jw marriott houston: http://www.marriott.com/hotels/travel/houjw-jw-marriott-hotel-houston/

2.premium outlets shopping heaven : http://www.premiumoutlets.com/outlets/outlet.asp?id=77

3. kathy mills shopping (definite leg & neck exercise for hard core browsing, huge!! ):
http://www.simon.com/mall/default.aspx?ID=1253

4. sheikh chillis restaurant for halal food :

address 6121 Hillcroft St Ste NHouston, TX 77081-1007. ph (713) 995-6768.
ada kedai mamak sebelah to buy prepaid caller card USD 5 for cheap rate to call Malaysia

..excitement tak habis lagi. to be continued

bite - bite - bite

2009-02-02T13:30:00.004+08:00

+this plaster is sticky, looks yummy too..ngap!!+

+ and this one is not as chewwy as I thought. but what the heck..I'm bored anyway..ngap+

+papa..i'm hunngwwyy can't you see ?.. am i halluscinating? this toy looks like a candy...ngap!!+

in another event which consistently potray his polished skill..

+ this shoe strap taste good. the texture is funny, i likee.. ngap!! +

p/s : mama can tolerate with you biting your shoe's strap.only this time.

first hospitalization

2009-02-02T13:08:00.005+08:00

post chinese new year balik kampung (taiping) , somehow ian vomitted several times within 6 hours. he had viral infection and more than 12 hours on 100 plus alone and dah start to cirit pulak, we admit him to hospital for good. it was agood experience for me as I learnt on how to nurse ahim (from the tips given by the doctors, of course) it somehow not an exciting experience for little ian , definitely as clealy shown from this pics.

" macam dlm prison la mama..boring nothing to do than to stare at papa who is snoring (sorry papa, it's supposed to be a joke!!)"

" why papa taking so many picture of me ? can't he tell that i'm bored to death?? cakar kang camera ni !! "

" tak posing pun papa snap more photos...can't you just take me for a walk instead..papa..papaaaa..pAAPAAAA.....ggrrr......"

tips given by the doctor:

1. viral infections will resulted to vomiting, then dihria (don't know how to spell) and demam

2. baby will be dehydrated - where the fontanel will be slighlt dented

3. feed baby on 100 plus (shake, cap open to remove the gas)

4. introduce food once stabilize. limit milk or prridge to 2 oz per hours only

papa nia's birthday !!

2009-02-02T12:38:00.005+08:00

+since I jarang advertise my other family member (nak advertise macam mana, my own update pun once in few moon, duh) , i'm giving the honour for baby nia's first family photo in my blog since it's papa nia's birthday. and papa nia decided to have a new refreshing look to welcome & embrace 2009 (which looks frightening!!)+

+ as usual, emmil & ian mesti dapat first class seats. kononnya nak rehearse tiup candle for their upcoming bday tetapi kelihatan terpaksa ditenangkan oleh ..hhmmm tangan sapa tu ye....

ooo tangan tok mummy and uncle azli+

+ being a wife to a professional photographer results to us not having many family photos ourselves. gambar taken by mama poop prior makan makan and it was a quick one as ian is

actually tengah simpan 'kuih' yang hangat semerbak+

freezing london

2008-12-10T11:24:00.020+08:00

wet - cold - gloomy. that was how i was welcomed to london during my interview cum career fair trip. excited with the idea of a chilled winter, snow (on first few mornings) and xmas season but i was overwhelmed with my current workload and the idea of being apart with baby yeyen. aauuww... to begin with, 12oo flight was an emotional one when i could hear cries & goo-goo- gaa-gaa of 10 mths baby x (as name is unknown) few seats behind me. dah la tu, they ran out of nasi lemak for breakfast. huh! arrived on 23 nov morning & headed straight to hilton kensington. though it's going to be a 7 nights stay, we don't have much time to shop & wonder around as time is limited. had a big gigantic breakfast to fuel the energy for the day, we went straight to the never-to-be-missed oxford street. i guess we were not the only one excited. we waited for the shops to open despite the rains & the cold winter breeze. i have 150 pound to shop for eta & few penny (tipuu..) for my self. mothercare, marks& spencer, selfridges, debenham, boots, next, ann sommers etc ; you name it. but tak la mengacam sangat pun. things were not on sale anyway. duh.. if any, it was all on winter stuff (coat, wool, boots, jumper) which i don't need them.

+ xmas in the air at westfield, the new shopping complex next to sheperd's bush station+

+ feels like little girl in fairyland. hyde park was one big funfair. with ferris wheel, ice skating. and yes, that was my strawberry crepe with hot choc and donuttss (tak sempat nak ambik gambar sebab dah telan) +

bought some souvenirs, lingerie & baby wear (orang pesan) , food stuff ..ok la..but having found Primark really makes my day as it is very much suited for commoners like me. it's never on sale but everything is cheap. since i don't have the whole day to queue for the fitting room, i ended up buying baby stuff - jeans, jumper, sock all averaging 2 - 3 pound. anyway, me & yati shopped like mad from 1030 am until i realized both of my feet crooked. it's already 5 pm & dark, we marched back to marble arch station, but stopped by at clarks (the sign shown clearance sales!). the sales girl were so delighted to welcome us, clearly seen from the shopping bags left & right, we spent another round of 70 pound for the 2 handbags & my leather office shoes. terus pakai pulak tuh! dalam keadaan tempang we walked to hotel from sheperd's bush (8 mins walk). the moment sampai hotel, baru terasa lapar and we had hotel dinner (soo sad & miserable as we realized it the same menu for the entire week). today desert bread puding with vanilla sauce, esok bread puding with choc sauce. huhuu. anyhow, we enjoyed the dinner as the diners were all old folks who looked miserable during winter including us.

+ at bicycle bombay club as recommended by ashish, our hilton reception guy. hot & smoking, southern indian food.
had chicken curry & aubergine. good food, great gossiping buddy. worth every 30 pound+

the next day, same gigantic breakfast(same food) and we went to queensway to go to MSD. i need to clear few interview arrangement, met abang E (hehe.. i won't the bet, eta akan belanja xmas buffet) and singgah oxford street to tukar baju kat mark & spencer. then straight to knightsbridge for harrods. shop at harrods, not cheap but just grab few items sebelum kempunan di kemudian hari. but the tragic part was when i lost yati & on top of that my phone was out of batt. yati pulak don't have anybody contact no. except me! i ended up balik sendiri after waited for 20 mins and prayed hard no one will kidnapped me or yati along the way (drama!!.) we met up at the hotel (phew) and happily we went for the hotel dinner (again) to celebrate as no one hurts. the next night, we went to have a bollywood indian dinner for two at bombay bicycle club at holland park ave.

the next few days were dry as my interviews & career fairs had started. i stayed at the hotel to administer the interview arrangement & met ichah, my old friend to pass her barang dapur yg dipesan. sorry ichah, i forgot your rempah kurma babas!!. met florence & the gang and other head hunters. on my last day too, had gathering lunch with ali jalal & his family at his apartment in ealing. makan laksa johor and enjoyed the ride back to hotel. it's amazing to have friends who settled in london. interesting people, wonderful experience. oohh ya! not to mention, london is very much affected by the financial crisis. it's good to big shoppers as there's loads of xmas offers as compared to last year to boost local sales. whether you will enjoy the xmas offer is a second thing. but if you enjoy perfumes, partywear & eying for winter items, you will benefit the most.

+ big malaysian dinner at satay house with the rest of the team. florence and her endless taugeh affair. the ayam masak merah yg dah 3/4 empty tu, akulah punca nye. memang sedap+

my next trip perhaps, will be more well planned and include bicester village i presume?? he...he..i enjoyed the trip very much & very assured will come again next year. the only unpleasant thing would be the bad red marks i had on my skin for the itchiness of the cold & hard water. it's terrible. and MAS ran out of nasi lemak againnNN on my flight back home.

ian ian ian

2008-11-11T19:49:00.008+08:00

plan to show yeyen's first tooth, but can't be seen from these pics. anyway, these are his looks at 7 months close to 1 month lepas cukur rambut

first family raya

2008-10-03T13:08:00.007+08:00

this year ramadhan has been a busy one. never in my working years i went home late despite the 4pm end-office hour (the last one when i was still single, buka puasa with officemate during planning cycle-an exception la..). after assuming the recruitment planner role, of course i want to execute my first task well - recruitment budget. with the tight deadline of one week, everyday balik lewat about 6 - 6.30 pm. my pumping schedule was so irregular with me fasting, my EBM dropped dramatically. yeyen has not been that keen during day also, so i have to depend on breastfeeding him at night only. anyhow, managing the rest of other issues falling from the sky makes me a bit distracted with my core function. the team has been travelling around the globe with interviews & career fairs, so i'm left with other domestic issues that need to be addressed. sigh.. sampai baju raya pun i decided to just use the existing cotton fabric which i bought 5 years ago during my trip to islamabad. so, this year first family raya, we are in the blue team. yeyen's baju raya was a cute one. tailored sailor shirt with the dark blue check shirt. bought the material at kamdar ss2. campur upah tailor balakong, i guess hardly reaching rm 20 a piece. nanti boleh pakai with abang emmil. what a pair!!

balik kampong on sunday after settling all the raya errands on saturday. woke up at 4 am, we reached taiping by 8 am. kak sue & family was still around but about to depart to up north. syabil chicken pox has 90% gone except for the physical scar in healing process. with aiman, aizat, syahmi, syabil & najmi around, the accurate description of raya di taiping was definitely NOISY and HECTIC.

+ yeyen enjoys naik buaian because it's windy and cooling +

+ playing around with papa's songkok+

+check cotton baju melayu with matching samping. kasut raya adidas. hensem baby boy mama nih+

quorum tak cukup during the first raya day. but, it has been a while we take a proper family picture. nevertheless, it was still fun & enjoyable especially having yeyen's around. he has been at his good behaviour (as he always be) even with all people coming. he either play with himself in his walker cayyane or just be plain sweet with the guest carrying him. i cooked spaghetti bolognaise, chocolate brownie (better than the last one i made early ramadhan) and garlic bread. sempat jugak la sebab mak yang banyak tolong cover jaga yeyen. thanks mak yang!!

+yeyen dah penat posing, inilah hasilnye+

ian at 7 months

2008-09-25T20:46:00.003+08:00

yeyen's milestone so far :

+ pandai melunjur, ala komando
+ he is soooo noisy, mumbling all the time especially when he's in a very happy mood
+ he loves to scream for no reason
+ he enjoys his walker and started to reach out his surroundings. table cloth kat rumah tu mangsa pertama dia
+ his drooling makin menjadi jadi. semua benda nak di'kokak'nya, including my fleshing knee
+ nappy change is becoming a challenge, as he can't be still. tips, give him toys to make him hold & play
+ putting him to sleep at night is a battle. makin lasak, golek ke depan belakang for one hour and still not asleep. until tengah main main atas katil, terus tido out of sudden

red mommies farewell

2008-08-30T14:45:00.005+08:00

it's great really catching up with your old gang.. although it's supposed to be a farewell thing with tears and drama, the one we had at red box pavillion was a big night out. can you imagine, almost 12 moms group together in red, karaokeying....haavvooccc!!

it's a farewell for icha, zuera and naz who'll be leaving the country to follow the husband. offically, they'll be the leisure mom expat.. doing nothing but spending your husband money for shopping!!!! he.he.. who can resist that???? anyway girls, enjoy your stay in london - icha, doha - zuera & tak sure kat mana for naz.

but my real observation with the girls, almost half of them (including me) had that extra inches on their waistlinee.......... praise to mother nature!!

si bulat mama

2008-08-12T13:42:00.004+08:00

+ serious nye..+

+in his exploration car+

these are yeyen's new look. i had initially planned the shaving ceremony at home with the help of unprofessional stylist; abg nasir. unfortunately, boleh lupa lak bawak the razor kit. ceh! end up yeyen's ceremony had to be transfered to papa dst mite's sg way saloon sin jun.. he..he.. quick and easy in just 3 minutes, ian sayang mama dah jadi booottaakkk....and all the calar balar is becoming highly visible!!

alhamdulliah, he is less grumpy as before. thanks to tok mummy with her air penawar and the lullabies. night chore is still filled with breast feeding with once a while wide awake to play (i can still tolerate with that).

yeyen at 5 month 2 weeks weighs at 7.6 kg at 69 cm at length. his new image makes him roOOounder and fleshier (just like his motheerrr)..

his milestones to date :

+ roll over left & right

+ still cakar kepala, so he is wearing either the mittens or topi

+ enjoy his walker, he moves gracefully now ke depan & belakang : gear dua by standard

+ trying to sit unsupported, his back is getting stronger

ian at 5 months

2008-07-28T14:00:00.005+08:00

smalam yeyen genap 5 months. i'm so happy with his new milestones :

- toss & turn with mini push up

- he is sooo amazed to play with his feet. i guess he just discovered all are attached together

- his grumpiness still consistent whenever he passes his nap time. but his voice is louder than before..sigh

last visit to dr lee, his weight was 6.9. hurray!

ian at 3 months

2008-05-28T16:00:00.027+08:00

yesterday was his 3rd month birthday. cepatnye baby mama membesar. since at 2 months, he is still consuming 4oz per feeding. but he was on his growth spurt last few weeks . my frozen BM dah habis, has to supplement with soy milk. mana taknye, few occasions he gulped 6 oz, pergh... sebab tu baby mama dah makim tembam. since i'm still dedicated at breastfeeding, night chore has becoming every 2 hours. weekends pun, curi masa iron baju & kemas rumah in between feeding. tiring indeed tapi alhamdulliah manageable.

his development milestone has so far being good.

- he follows moving objects intently, especially the lion dekat rumah tok mummy.

- he coos and talks to his dangling froggie the mirror and the 3-lil-teddies (big grin but suara tak keluar he..he..).

- he loves to keraskan badan dan melentik badan as he has developed strength in his legs and back. seksanya to position him especially when lifting him for breast feeding or to put him in the car seat.

- he wiggles a lot which i finds it cute. he wiggles when crying for susu. he wiggles for us to lift him. and wiggles to be cuddled to put him to sleep.

- sleeping routine at nite is yet to stabilized. you can catch me sleeping in an upright position with him on my lap. he's cranky not because he is hungry, but he just wants to be cuddled, enjut and tepuk sampai lena. in the break of dawn pun, kalau terpaksa i will stand half-asleep enjut tepi katil. huh..ni gara gara suka naik buaian la nie. malam can be quite a challenged.

- he learns to make noise at his happy mood. depends on his mood, but he can be noisy at times.

- he loooves sucking his thumbs and whole hands. and making bubbles. he sleeps with bubbles too, meleleh leleh..sungguh tak senonoh.

hhmm..mama loves baby yeyen so much. don't grow up too fast ok.

ian & elmo

2008-05-15T12:54:00.004+08:00

ian at 2 months. papa dst mite bought little ian his elmo to accompany him during his car ride. but ian's fave is definitely the cute lil' fan. he stops crying or will be wide awake by the spiraling light. it also makes his diaper-changed session an enjoyable one!

finally arrived

2008-03-02T14:28:00.007+08:00

closure to my 38 weeks

2008-03-01T23:00:00.011+08:00

26 feb (tuesday) : 1600 hours

"if i were you, i'll get myself checked just to be sure ". ok hanim and off i went to primanora leaving behind my messy desk. the moment dr nora saw me, she clapped her hand which i later joined her , don't know why. she said brown discharge it's a symptom for an early labor but early may varies from 2 days to 2 weeks. but, i felt relieved yet excited as i know everything going to be fine and sooner than expected. so we headed home, did some laundry and had a short nap before leaving home for dinner & cake eating session at kg tunku.

26 feb (tuesday) :2015 hours

what i thought of my urine was actually my waterbed. okayy..so this is how it looks. still shocked with the situation when my waterbed broke at mummy's house, i had a quick dinner and rushed home to casa to pick up our things. excited! yes, this is it.!! we went to PMC and i managed myself making phone call to hanim.

26 feb (tuesday) :2200 hours

checked in at the PMC, got myself changed and waited. i was still unsure on what next. but went i step in to the delivery room, i had flashes of questions for the unknown. why i haven't feel any pain, i mean, should i be in pain now ? at least, i'm glad dr nora confirmedd she will conclude my delivery as she'll only be departing on thursday, so, i know it's going to be a quick one. mummy later came with some cholocate cake since`i missed`the birthday cake session earlier. somehow i vowited later as the effect for the shot the nurse jap me earlier had manipulated me.

27 feb (wednesday) :0000 hours

they inserted the ubat into my vagina to induce labor. contraction started to set in. i was so excited to check my contraction-tolerance level, so i checked the reading every 30 seconds. kalau below 20 means none, above 20 is still considered a teaser. ermm..ok, i can go through this insya-allah. but at times, reading shot up hgh to 70 - 80. gulp.. ok.. boleh tahan jugak sakitnye he..heh... sure need epidural punya..since i was yet to dilate, the epidural will be given later. so, now comes the waiting-to-be-fully-dilated game and owww-my-god, the pain is beyond any reasonable man can barely imagine. i felt papa dst mite holding my hand, rubbing my forehead which i sometimes did not find it helpful. and i remembered i was annoyed when he didn't count my contraction gap properly. (sorry sayang, sakkiittt)

27 feb (wednesday) :0200 hours

the only thing i recalled were i was drowsy with the ethonox and fighting the deep pain. i breathe in deep. and as i breathe out hard against the contraction, i felt the baby head coming out, and out. somehow in between the pain and the drowsiness, i was shocked out of sudden when the aneasthetian appeared and mentioned about epidural shot will be given now. to top it up, i learnt that i was already 6 cm dilated. what ? after i had won half of the battle, why now ? nevermind, not that i can bear another 4 cm worth of pain to walk gracefully to the finishing line anyway. the numbness started to get in and i am calmer than ever. however, i find it so anti-climax and so odd for being too calm and too numb. i can't feel my leg, not even my toe.

27 feb (wednesday) :0300 hours

after some few attempts to push (not because pushing was hard, but i don't know how & where to push as the effect of epidural was so strong), the baby finally came out. i was eye to eye with him and i felt a big mix of emotions : sad and in joy at the same time. happy to see that i am actually holding baby ian with my own bare hands. god is great.

dr nora finished the placenta and gave me few closing stiches before saying goodbye to the rest of the team. i was put to rest with the baby and started to breastfeed him. god is so great. it works like a miracle. the baby natural instinct latched on well and the feeling of motherhood amuses me and makes smile with pride. i just won the battle, and now is a new beginning. i'm the new proud mother to this adorable little baby.

whilst waiting to be transfered to the ante natal room at 3rd floor, screaming of mommy-next-door filling the atmosphere. shouts of encouragement from the nurses made me smile. i saw myself crossing the finishing line once again with triumph joy and loud cheer. i finished my delivery well. and i know mommy-next-door is too

post delivery comment :

i guess none of the nurses expected i dilated sooner that average 1st time mother. 1st check - 0 cm. 2 hours later for 2nd check - 6 cm. 1 hour after - delivery time. alhamdullillah, i exceeded my own expectation, better than i imagined. and papa dst mite too deserve an A+ rating for the well done job.

hurray!! baby ian iskandar weighing 3.0 kg safely arrived on 27 feb at 0300 hours. he was delivered at his 38 weeks.

ian lepas sunat, a day after delivery

under phyto light for the prolonged jaundice

what i recently strummed

2008-01-14T20:24:00.002+08:00

Kerispatih - Tapi Bukan Aku

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pssttt...
felt awkward to strum after quite some time since last played. good to feel the burning pain on my fingers..will continue playing. chord tak susah pun. better get this one right before i switch to play barney song to welcome the new born baby.

Intro : G

C         D            G
jangan lagi kau sesali keputusanku
C          D            G
ku tak ingin kau semakin kan terluka
Am      D          G    Em
tak ingin ku paksakan cinta ini …
C             D          G
meski tiada sanggup untuk kau terima

C          D             Em
aku memang manusia paling berdosa
C         D         G     Em
khianati rasa demi keinginan semu …
Am              D    G         F#m    Em
lebih baik jangan mencintai aku dan semua hatiku
C                D              G
karena takkan pernah kau temui, cinta sejati

reff:
Am                      D                           G F#m  Em
berakhirlah sudah semua kisah ini dan jangan kau tangisi lagi
Am                      D                        G
sekalipun aku takkan pernah mencoba kembali padamu
C           D           G     Em
sejuta kata maaf terasa kan percuma …
Am          D            G
sebab rasa ku tlah mati untuk menyadarinya..

C          D
semoga saja kan kau dapati
G     F#m      Em
hati yg tulus mencintaimu
C   D
tapi bukan aku………………

Welcoming 2008 with big hope and pray

2008-01-01T20:38:00.002+08:00

i closed 2007 with lots of alhamdullillah for the ups and down that i have been through. the 2007 journey made it an enriching year resulted to who and what i am today, a stronger person, a better listener (thanks to the polished hr skill), an observant to office politics (yet analyzing from every angles on how to maneuver myself) and overwhelmingly a patient, caring and a loving person day by day.

i shall looked 2007 with a great smile - a year of happiness with dst mite for the warm simple husband-wife lifestyle. nothing much different if i were to compare to our dating era, the love and the amount of disagreement are just the same. the closeness is greater, we were wiser (not all the times though) and proven that we were quite a compatible partner. i had accomplished a lot of personal milestones which i'm very impressed with myself (hooray..!!) throughout 2007. just to name a few memorable experience :

1. scouting for furnitures and house hold prior moving in physically in january.
loads of leg works, you name it; homelife, kelana furniture, ikea, harvey norman, courts mammoth, old klang road, cavenzi, lorenzo, plus other kedai cokia throughout subang, kota damansara and pj.

2. urut pak ngah.
it has been a monthly affair now, my preference over the sophisticated bali massage. but the first visit was really an experience to remember..

3. aktiviti memasak.
since moving out from kg tunku, i vowed to cook as much as possible whenever opportunity arises. apart from routine tutup mata dishes, i'm proud to self proclaimed that i managed to cook gulai lemak labu with pucuk manis, ayam masak lemak cili padi, chapatti with spicy sambal sardin, fluffy waffles (ini bukan pakai instant mix tau!), ayam kapitan, bright eye susan cookies, kek batik, kari ikan chinese style and the recent one (during mak visit last week), gulai lemak udang with nanas. my seafood tomyam mendapat pujian dari ita and suraya also, siapa sangka ye ?

4. swimming
should be more regular, but alhamdullillah my stamina maintain before & during pregnancy for breaststroke, free style and favourite backstroke.

5. guitar
although i no longer can proudly say i can skillfully play a song or two, but i still recall few basic chords. i stopped my guitar class in july after knowing i'm pregnant. saja, malas pulak nak main guitar since i'm not sure how i'm going to cope with the daily practising throughout pregnancy. it turns out, i don't have any morning sickness or significant difficulties that actually affect my mood or timetable pun. what a waste. but, prior to that, i managed to play quite a number of upbeat songs, simple but fun. but, the agony of learning hotel california was priceless. sampai 2 bulan belajar, baru dapat played smoothly (quite) tapi malangnya terus stop class bila tau pregnant. sekarang, jari dah keras, unable to recall at all. huh!

5. pregnancy
i love to hear him saying ' hari ini jumpa baby dst mite' while rubbing my growing belly. i hope his baby talk will not worsen his pronunciation, sebab pelat sangat. he promised to snap photos of my belly every month, sampai sudah belum lagi. hisshhh... shopping for baby stuff was fun as well, although we did more window shopping than actual buying. luckily, we share the same taste so tak gaduh sangat. dst mite has been very supportive and helpful. he lend his hand in housework and ensure my comfort whilst watching tv or sleeping. whenever he returned from his late meetings he will re-position my sleeping pattern with the pillows underneath my feet and behind my back. he sleeps while rumbling his finger to my tummy, hoping for a reply kick from the baby. his goodnight ritual was endless, with lots of loving whispers and kisses. i'm confident these sweet stuff he did will not end when the baby finally arrives, insyaallah.

wow, what a progress! i hope the momentum is pacing for a better 2008 especially in terms of implementation. in determination, i welcome my 2008 to be a wonderful year by being the true me who are(will):

1. tak perlu kerja kuat sangat
as i can get carried away with work at times, i'll survive this year by just being efficient, productive as a normal employee with an extra of 10% commitment than the normal mediocre. i had enough of being the 'super committed-vocal-efficient-proactive leadership at all levels person'. taking half-step back would not hurt.

2. tak nak jadi anak derhaka
since mak will be accompanying me throughout my pantang, i hope for a wonderful 2 months maternity leave in peace and joy. i'm not going to dispute her scientifically not proven method. after all, i'm planning for a traditional confinement, so just listen to her do's and don't with an open mind (and deaf ear).

3. a supermom with lots of trial & error between work-home-baby-husband plus 'me' time
i've read the formula from the testimonials and parenting book, but implementing them requires a lot of patience and ketakwaan serta keimanan. wish me luck!!

4. considering earning an extra income
don't know how but i hope i can make extra pocket money. tak tau lagi macam mana..

5. start playing guitar and sewing
these 2 personal projects have started last year but need to be continued. perjuang yang belum selesai. how i'm going to squeeze in the time, i let end 2008 to post mortem at the implementation nanti. will see how it goes.

6. manage financially better
i always pray for rezeki yang melimpah ruah. but i know, rezeki tak akan datang tanpa usaha serta berkat doa. semoga allah permudahkan perjalanan kewangan sufficient for kami sekeluarga bertiga. insyallah, bila rezeki lebih, i hope i keep reminding myself agar bersyukur dan wiser in money management. hutang credit cards tu boleh lah di kamikazekan, insyaallah.

so mummy cat, wish you all the courage and patience you need for the challenges ahead. remember, god has brought you this far. he won't abandoned you now. with undeniably lots of loves and sweet kisses to you and the unborn baby.. xoxo

have a blessed and prosperity 2008

may god eases your journey toward reaching your goals and dreams you have built.

third trimester

2007-12-22T10:16:00.003+08:00

week 28 - dec 22

i realised papa boxer which becomes my favourite nightwear since pregnant is expanding at its max. papa cakap, lepas ni dia dah tak boleh pakai all his boxers anymore. takpelah, baby dah membesar dalam perut mama dengan jayanya. nanti upah papa dst with new sets of boxers. as i'm embracing my new third trimester, i learnt that the milk producing gland starts working to producing milk. i haven't 'mooing', not yet but i look forward to. i envision to breastmilk exclusively to baby dst mite after i am convinced that nothing beats mom's milk. baby formula is getting too commercialized nowadays with enhanced formula to compete with the natural goodness of human milk. i hope i'm determine and discipline enough when it comes to milking (via breast pump or breast feeding). with papa dst mite support, i'm confident i will and i can. so, we'll see how well the implementation goes.. so mama, if you start dreaming being a milking cow, that's a good start.. mooo....

baby weight : 1.325 kg

week 31 - jan 09

our check up today was better than the last session, we waited for 2 hours only. 1st appointment with my gynae went well, no swelling feet, tummy looks okay except she reconfirmed my concern that the weight gain actually goes to the mummy than to the baby he..he.. i had a tetanus jap to cover myself & the baby before his routine 1st short after 1 month and proceed to 2nd doctor's appointment for the 3D scan. it went for about half & hour. alhamdulliah, no abnormalities found and the baby is fairly normal in terms of development ; brain, heart, spine, abdomen, genital and the limbs. it was okay, a bit informative although he has toned really down to layman terms. cuma conclusion to the day killed the excitement. phone bill kena potong. after some short drama before paying the bill, the line has been resumed. sigh.

baby weight : 1.8 kg

week 34 - jan 26

baby was fine, mama dia je yang tak fine sangat sebab penat menunggu. itupun, after urine and routine checkup went out for morning tea to kill some time. went to pak ngah to mengurut after lunch. ingatkan, pak ngah nak test my skill in puffing and breathing je. rupanya habis sejam setengah tu kena pop kuiz dengan dia - how to handle uri, tungku nanti balut dengan apa, baby nak breastfeed macam mana, lauk pantang, hospital checklist, apa ramuan bertangas, pakai daun apa for tungku.. pergh.. nasib baik ada buat homework sikit, so boleh jugak jawab although can't show him you know all the answers as well. orang tua, biasa la kena ambik hati dia by pretending to be ignaront. anyway, urut was so-so this time as compared the last one. after all, i did not face much soreness except that my feet beginning to swollen a bit. papa dst mite buat bekam sekejap so, by 4 pm we were on the road heading home. this week, minum banyak air kelapa to bersihkan baby.

baby weight : 2.0 kg

week 36 - feb 9

7 & 8 were chinese new year holidays. so, check up today was the fastest waiting ever. baby is accumulating baby fat. asked about few questions on neer's condition yesterday. dr nora advised 2 stages to be alarmed and march straight to the hospital.
1. when your water start to break or leaking
2. when contraction becoming frequent
may try to have warm shower to overcome the pain. staying at home will make you more at ease and comfortable. but the moment dah kerap to 1 hr, get ready to go to hospital. too early takut boring pulak.

according to her, i have no problem with the baby and placenta, insyaallah. so, any traces of fresh blood should be normal, unless ada bleeding. tapi kalau ikut pak ngah, dia siap suruh try to measure dilation. if 1 - 2 fingers still ok. but the moment dah 4 fingers, ready to board to the hospital. i wonder when the times come i'll be going through all this checklist by myself. papa dst mite nampak macam take note, but tak sure if he can remind me on this. buatnya kalau dua dua panic, tak ke hancur ? btw, baby has been very active especially at night. i was awaken by the strong movement several times, normally around 3 - 4 am. hhmm...

baby weight : 2.3 kg

week 38 - feb 22

bought baby cot after knowing ikea will be late in getting their supply on board. nice and cute, i will get the cot bumper set that i'd been eying for. those cute little safari.. or at least the neutral version to suit baby boy or girl. anyhow, my check up went well. dr nora highlighted that it won't be anytime soon, so shall wait until edd and give another week after to see the progress. there's good chances for normal delivery too since i have not shown any complications based on my 9 months record. so, i guess i should continue being active, finalized my hospital bag and kemas rumah. air halba tu pun bolehla di di hirup dengan lebih kerap. makan pun sudah sudah la telan yang merapu (buttttt.....shut up!). what i learnt from my check up today :
1. breast pumping and sex will induce labour. don't worry, mature milk will come naturally after delivery. so, simpan dulu breast pump tu.
2. colustrum - is the quality not quantity that matters.
btw, semua orang ada last weekend to visit me - fraya & family, mak, abang & eta. mak buat my fave (and looks like papa dst mite pun dah berjangkit) : lopez de squera. sedapnya tuhan saja yang tahu.

baby weight : 2.6 kg

mz dina alicia

2007-12-07T10:26:00.001+08:00

+new addition to the family+

+mz dina in her red peg-prego carrier ready for boarding+

+who can resist those chubby south cheeks+

+the proud grand parents; tok mummy & tok daddy+

happy (belated) 2-year anniversary

2007-12-07T01:11:00.001+08:00

not that it does not matter. but sorry for the post-dated wish. i realized when we waited for lunch at mummy's house last afternoon - 2 dec. an exchange of warm hugs and well wishes suffice to mark our anniversary with gratitude. itu saja yang bermakna buat masa ini.

sigh..it's been 2 years. 2 enriching years with a colorful journey. despite the ups and down, i looked back with pride and satisfaction for what i have become with. with what i have learnt throughout marriage life, something you can't pick up through reading alone. valuable experiences and excitements that i won't trade. i have come this far and achieved so much in life, to name a few;

1. i polished my cooking skill
who on earth would imagine me cooking gulai lemak labu dengan pucuk manis. i surprised myself too. but hey, i have a lot more syllabus to finish!! and i still strive to cook (although only basic everyday meal) in between house work and dst mite unpredictable sleeping-working time zone

2. i jog and swim regularly at least during weekend

3. i have my own hibernation space, small but warm and cosy
humble enough for two, we managed to get basic stuff to what we start our life with. small little shack, filed with loves (minus the monthly installment)

4. i discovered dst mite softness beneath his steel willed
difficult times will unleash the real you. being transparent makes you vulnerable than ever. but hey.. marriage is supposed to be a team affair - who says you have to deal with the pain alone.

5. i'm embracing motherhood
alhamdullillah. no morning sickness for the past 6 months. i'm still active in the office, completed few domestic traveling, routine house chores and still trying to look sweet and pretty like other hot-mom (i wish).

6. and yes, i'd also completed few beaded work, latest project to my green shantung silk

although issues do come between us, we hardly spoke and discus about it. because we knew,whenever we hit that long deep silence that peak the moment, we kill the fear by cuddling in tears dreaming for the best of tomorrow.

happy anniversary sayang. i pray for a prosperous and joyous anniversary next year; spiritually and financially. more so with the new addition to our family insyaallah, how wonderful it will turn out to be.

baby blues - emotional mix

2007-12-06T23:31:00.002+08:00

i can't tell the reason why i will always ended up crying than screaming in joy whenever i'm thinking about the baby. i'm grateful for the god's gift. i'm excited for the body changes and the baby preparation list. i'm blessed by the support and encouragement from my family and friends. but, what else lacking?. what else have been putting me so down and low.

the journey of emotion that i have been in the past 6 months and the fear of not knowing in the next 6 months ahead really eat me. it has not been a perfect journey like you can find in a perfect mommy-to-be diary. mine is more of a spellbinding road with few sharp turns in a backdrop of some stormy weather. i can't help it but feel sorry for the baby who has to share my down moment and pain. there's some few rainbow here and there, but why must them always at the far endless end ? have i lost my dedication? have i given up hope? am i tired of waiting and praying? scared maybe. frustrated? disappointed with the poor result.

in the name of god, the most gracious and merciful, give me the strength and courage that i little have. for you i depend on. for you i prayed upon. you have brought me this far. you won't abandoned me now.

just bear with me, my little belly. you are my hidden strength whom i am inspired for. and we are doing the best we can, the best we can stand tall upon.

2nd trimester - week 20(s)

2007-11-04T12:33:00.002+08:00

week 20 - 26 oct

monday. after the long eid fitri holiday was my official maternity day wear. wore it to the office and yes, obviously i had that special attention from my colleagues and the abang garang at klcc lrt. ''miss, tolong ke depan miss, tolong queue kat depan''. oh, he's referring to me and i can't believe i was so embarrassed to be given such a privilege premier lane to board the lrt by being the first. life as a pregnant lady is so much of unexpected perks and unwanting attention. plus, your belly has become a hand magnet to strangers and friends.

when i was in JB for the 3 day open day, i had what i want. seafood at permas jaya, mee rebus hj wahid (not up to my expectation though) and murtabak singapore. to end the event, i bought a step-by-step book on beaded embroidery. auuuwwgh, i guess knowing the start-up capital to learn sewing is more expensive (mesin jahit alone is RM800 ++) jahit manik is definitely what i'll be going after.

week 21 - 3 nov

"you'll be needing a lot of blue!!". so it's going to be a boy then..oooohhkay..(hhmmph -silence). everyone has been speculating it's going to be a girl, not that i have any preference, i'm overwhelmed. but the moment i was informed, i just went on plain blank. papa dst mite's soft grip on my ankle assured me he's happy to know he has someone to share share his timberland and helicopter interest. everyone burst into laughter when i told neer via the telephone that it's an 'ultraman'. he..he.. cute. so, polka-dot mattress set, here i come...

week 23 - 15 nov
when you pay too much attention to experience the kick, you ended up being paranoid to your body. you keep touching your round belly, expanding your ear to find a thumping sound and having that 'where's that sound?' look. hardly any..hhhmmm.. you want to trick me heh, little belly ? but, it's a miracle when the thumping thud is becoming more familiar and regular. the moment you think of it, the amazing you feel about how the seed of life is growing in you, in your very own womb. there's a little creature kicking inside you. i am beginning to feel small and humble to learn god's powerful creation. how blessed i am to have experienced motherhood. god is great.

week 25 - dec 1

since it's already december, i was very teruja with the fact that i'm already in the 3rd trimester milestone.. hooray..(cepatnye..gulp!). sale here and there.. it's time for me to make that long baby shopping list into action
baby check up on dec 1st went well, but i learnt that my baby boy weigh 860 g and can be circumcized a day or two after delivery. but the best part part was i gained 4 kilos which hit me to the 72 kg scale..aarrgggggghh!!! i hope the fat goes to my voluptuous boobs than to my chubby thigh. so in return, me and my other new mommy team, neer (and senior nursing advisor mummy-in-law) marched to ss2 pureen warehouse sale where loads of baby staff were on hot selling rack. bought so many stuff (which was to my surprise, above my ordinary self-expectation) knowing that i have zero idea of the current market price. i ended up loading the basket without thinking whether 'do i really need this ?'. disposable breast pad, powder, baby brush, changing mat: you name it. gasaklah, tak mampu beli mothercare pun, i'm still enjoying my shopping spree without any guilt. so, all totalling to RM 101. then i bought the osh kosh baby tee belang belang which will go well with a pair of blue jeans.. tapi seluar jeans tak beli lagi le.. he..he.. so excited!!

week 26- dec 7

I noticed that many things i've planned to do throughout pregnancy have not been fully realized. i vowed to write letters to the baby so i could cherish the moment once he is born. i planned to measure my tummy for the progress apart from playing around with the baby naming game. why am i missing all these fun things?? putting aside the office workload, i have to admit that life has been difficult. although you try not to be too overwhelmed by the challenges and what i have to put up with ahead, i fear for what is coming. and the funny thing is when you start summing all the life puzzle, crying will always be the perfect quick fix, putting you off from the hard life you're living with. it does not pay you any solution, but indeed the 2 minutes relief from the after-effect is worth a strong dose of inner spirit.

baby weight : 0.8 kg

ramadhan once again

2007-10-09T11:50:00.001+08:00

raya is just peeping thru this coming weekend corner. alhamdullilah, my pregnancy put me in the same energy level and spirit to carry on fasting whilst working 8am to 4pm-laundry by the night & still cook sahur at 4 am. i had not had the opportunity to cook for buka posa as i have been receiving generous invitation especially from mom-in-law to iftar at kg tunku. good to have the company, our task are more in kuih shopping at pasar ramadhan. my fave goes to kelana jaya as the selection is more and the intensity is reaching 'ganas' level. dst mite's nasi briayani johore is worth killing, was damn good as i had not appreciate malay-version of briayani before until this one. apart from that, other dishes are normal. pasar ramadhan UIA and SS14 are okay too, typical meal you can expect there. but the one in kamunting was superb. they had bakar-panggang counter for more than 10 counters. rendang kerang was also a hit. nyam nyam... menyesal tak beli.

this year raya i'm celebrating in kl before heading to my home town on the 3rd raya. on the raya eve, home spring-cum-summer cleaning was ardous. so we opt for nasi kandar kayu for a quick energy (and spicy fat) treat. then, headed to campbel to collect faisal's baju raya and took the opportunity to buy kuih ros kak fiza RM10 for the packs of 3. sedap and lemak with the coated roasted sesame.

we were donned in lucious green. me with korean plain cotton baju kurung and added leaves sequins and beads whilst papa dst mite with his baju melayu. we had the salam raya ritual at my parents-in-law home. sedih menyanyat hati pun ada as what mint's mentioned " this is going to be your last raya "together". next year you'll be basuh berak baby first thing in the raya morning!!". after some light breakfast with family members, we waited for a while for ms dina's arrival, teased her in her new dusty pink gown before heading to aunty rokiah's house for our first raya open house hunt. next, rumah tok mama and before we went straight home, singgah hospital kl to visit mamak molek and mak long (arwah) at the hospital. beraya di hospital will not be in anyone's wish list, but i hope our presence will shed off some sorrow and pain kepada yang menunggu. i'm glad i'd paid a visit on that day.

malam beraya at aunty nah's house, makan tak kenyang langsung. but were so tired, and just ignored the dissatisfying hunger. the next day, mummy buat open house 3 pm onwards. so, berhempas pulas with soto ayam, rendang, green-colored roti jala and nasi impit. bought home 1/2 kilo of roti jala as well to impress mak and sisters berada di kampung. liciiinn.. the color just make it plain appetising with mummy's thick chicken curry. yummy!

+naughhty amir-the-munchkin+

+amir & his lilin's friend+

+deep-mean glare from syabil (be afraid, be very afraid..)+

2nd trimester

2007-09-12T08:14:00.002+08:00

Week 12 - 3 sept

"what a beautiful spine".. how relief and we were to learn that i ended my 1st trimester with an excellent and well progressed baby. my gynae had difficulties to measure the lenght too as the baby was soo active, rotating itself and giving us a big hi-five. one-two-three-four-five. we happily counted her fingers. i was given a new set of mulltivitamin 'iberet' (?) and caltrate 600. as dr nora said, "no one is going to give you a gold medal if you complete your one-month fast" but i'm going to try. obviously, the 2kg gained worries me a little. blame it to the hyatt food, i should have learnt my lesson for my next trip in kuching end this week.

week 13

the open day in kuching 7 - 9 sept went well, at least i'm satisfied with the hotel arrangement and team commitment. the food was great, though i should have tried to find at least 1/2 an hour to swim or go to gym. the town was nice, modern & clean, a new atmosphere to be with with the colourful beads, the gambir sarawak (shyly reading through the how-to-use-instruction over and over again he..he..)

week 17

my effort to fast this year so far had been going quite well. it was a challenge in the first place during sahur, minus the thirst i'm doing great. i started my baby plus yesterday as i'm officially end of week 17. it was good, but can't feel any movement yet. had some cramps in the abdomen but the doctor said it was contractions. peh..! buat malu je. sakit jugak ye. macam my internal organ kena twist.. but my check up yesterday (8/10) put me in no-weight gain. thanks to ramadhan, i'm controlling my portion size. selera pun tak lah mengamuk sangat compared to non-ramadhan month. memang sah, bab makan ni is not about physical hunger, but more on psychology. i started taking coconut virgin oil (macam minum minyak, yeikss) last week, not my favourite but i learnt the trick to eat 'em by swallowing it once than let it linger on my tongue. my ginvera olive oil pun dah habis sebotol, i'm switching to follow me, thicker by texture. but still cheap.

1st trimester

2007-07-10T12:25:00.007+08:00

Week 6

i kept reminding myself that i'm actually pregnant over and over. i had great energy level as before, active and have been enjoying my life as before. alhamdulliallah, since i don't experience any morning sickness, i am going to embrace this motherhood the best that i can.

jogging routine has been replaced by paced walking. swimming is still a go. so, i'm keeping fit as much as possible and eat sensibly.

i'm hungrier and thirstier than ever. wake up at 4 am to the loo. snacking here and there. but apart from this, i'm good. first gynae visit at 5.5 week saw the healthy round sac. he..he...

life of a mummy cat

2007-07-10T12:25:00.006+08:00

it's all about timing, never going to dispute that. disbelief and excited i am, me & dust mite accepted the news with joy. when we realised watching tv activities has becoming too mundane and dull (more so when we missed astro payment this month) i knew its time for a 3rd person.

my period is late to begin with. not apprehensive like last month, i waited for few more days before checking up. though i kept telling myself ' could be stress' , i can't ignore the symptom like more discharge and super-sensitive nipples excite me more than ever. i can't imagine toilet bilik abang will be the chosen toilet for me to conduct the pregnancy test. it's positive, auuuwww.. dust mite happy, me happy.. medivron clinic confirmed the pregnancy on 8th july telling me i'm 5 weeks pregnant with EDD 11 march 2008.

alhamdullillah. everyone's happy for me.. so, my mission in my next blog will be more on the new chapter of my life.. life of a mummy cat..

family fun cameron highlands

2007-06-15T16:45:00.007+08:00

waffles & ice cream in the cold winter.we had our
english scone too during our tea session.

man-made colored flowers painting the blossoming garden

pretty flowers for girlie lady

at the lavendar park.

warming up depan fire place while sipping hot chocolate

picking tomato cherry at the fruit farm

psstt..

poyo..memang poyo.. all these pics were taken during our family ride at the cameron highlands. my last visit when i was in standard 3. it's a great feeling being in the cold weather, membuatkan i lebih semangat to visit london one day and enjoy the atmosphere. so, perasan la nih kununnye kat overseas..hehe..kesiannye.

miss my blog no more

2007-02-05T23:41:00.001+08:00

okay... life has been too busy to be captured in here. to sum up everything without eliminating the excitement I had for the past hhmm.. 2 solid monthd, i'd experienced quite a bit

1. balik kampung celebrated Christmas with mak
humble no-celebration-are-you-kidding-me!. you hate yourself for not having enough time for yourself, but whenever i balik kampung, i normally feel like killing myself for having too much sleep. as i got nothing to do, i colored my hair and chopped some more on my already cropped hair. dust mite too had his hair washed and hair cut ala nerd-not punk. all in only RM 72.

2. eid adha in kl
ate nasi dagang for brunch, nasi dagang for noon lunch and nasi dagang for afternoon tea. my turquoise baju kurung is sabotaging me, should have worn tight kebaya to add more guilt

3. new year barbecue supper party at ttdi
contrary to the the venue that is still in a state of a renovated mess, the food turned out superb. i made the salad which can be proud of, lots of lemon and olive oil!! the chicken and baked potato was great. worth the pain marching to makro to buy all the ingredients for the party..

4. barbecue party for sizzy 17th birthday
feels young at my teen surrounded by sizzy's friends whom are mostly spm leavers. too funky. kids nowdays. macam kat zouk pun ada. sigh! what happen to this world. but her guy friends are all boleh tahan especially adik model tuh! siap ada lesung pipit.. perg!

5. step into my new private casa
finally, the day came when i finally got to see myself running naked from room to room.. not that i plan to but, i'm all excited to move in and test the hidden interior design creator of me. thereafter, the episode of scouting from homelife-ikea-cavenzi-kelana jaya-kedai buruk old klang road begin. talking about legwork, walking up down from stairs to stairs. campur dengan gaduh lagi, we finally settled down for the microfibre 1+2+3 brown sofa and queen bedroom set. the homelife bargained 6-seater dining table is awesome. as of this time, we had all basic furniture and kitchen appliances ready except for rice cooker and LCD TV. others, will be in the next episode of casa impian when i have better sponsorship from pihak penaja he..heh..

6. swim myself away
god knows my preparation to swim. had a matching speedo lense with my new swim suit complemented by pink-black nike sandal. he..he... next month i bet, i'll swim faster than my guppy fish minus the bulging tummy

7. buyebarrel here i come
talking bout reconciliating the weekend. the last time i stayed back punching calculator in wee hour was during my university days. deja vu, last Saturday me and dust mite burnt the midnite oil plus the dawn dew punching the calculator. dust mite mata mewah transacting into the pc. esok pagi, terus masak soto ayam for the addin birthday party. penat sakit pinggang.

sigh! time passes by so fast. but, it had been a productive 2 months. pat meowmeow on her back. purr..

winter in beijing

2006-12-08T22:22:00.002+08:00

just like in the chinese drama series..the barren tree stood tall on the icy street. the wet surface look pale and gloomy. the fog although not as thick as before worsen the dull looking city. from my window seat, saw few locals farming, carrying logs and trees (for christmas tree or firewood?) in their thick jacket...

finally, it's fucking freezing cold. ok, it's only 1 degree celcius just to tease ya. but hey, the moment i step out to the driver especially when the moment the wind hit on my face..i automatically went ge ge..ge... iit'sszz..ccooolldddd....! anyway, thanks to my grey chic yet elegant jacket, helps to warm me a bit. of course, accompanied by the half dozen bosses sparks some heat as well. he..he.. en azhar with his hugo boss, MD melaram with his long leather overcoat (perasan macam Band of Brothers konon). however, the anti climax was my own ex-boss, typical chinaman with no guilt brought out his forest sporstman windbracker jacket like i used to wear during my primary school rombongan sekolah. duh!! hello, can you at least be super sensitive!!!

anyway, my room as i expected is wonderfulous as what i have used to (you are so vain girl!). i knew my journey affair with the big super king sized bed, height to my waist is incredibly hot and sexy.. hhmm..with the squeezed me tight, huggable big pillows swepted the back pain i had from the 6 hours of the lousy Malaysia Airlines flight. i'm ashamed with the airbus model for it's an old seat and not so back and neck friendly.

anyway, the traffic to the heart of beijing is heavy as usual. went to youyi giant supermarket, as usual but this time hunting for expensive designer label handbag made-in-china. in the 1 hour traffic, we had a great fun laughed at ourselves in the buick mpv while me recalling the latest designs of marc jacob and tods.. the hunt was verry efficient though, within 10 minutes, we decided to rope the 7 pieces of handbag. i got myself Hermes and Coach tote brown-copper-gold bag ala suede. 4 pieces all together at RMB 1400. not bad, split with en azhar and off we went for dinner. 'hunnngggwwyyyy' like what dust mite said, went to the good malaysian restaurant little penang which i finished the 1/4 kampung fried riced. went back to my room, filled up the big tub with hot waters, jazzidizing the room from the 42' plasma tv song selection and soaked my tired aching body in the hot hot warm bath...... hhhhhmmm...................................wish dust mite was here, ouch!

next morning, put on my favourite black suit matched with my borneo pearl necklace, marched to the club floor for breakfast. my typical breakfast (as always) cereal, i had wheat bran instead that morning with nuts and raisin accompanied with low fat cold milk topped with dried appricot and prune. the meeting went smooth with no big issues. there's real issues, but i guess i'm immune with them by now as my life still up and running with or without 'em. but the night when we had dinner was abit interesting as someone got heavily drunk with too much chinese wine and puked twice, once at the main hotel entrance and once at the hotel lobby. pity him, all i can do is to offer a damp toilet paper and my heartfelt apologies for what had happened. he did look miserable and helpless. had a quick shower, pack my stuff and check out. night flight out via singapore went well, although a slight delay during take off to kl. but, with my newly bought charles & keith black shoes with me, i'm happy. i got what i want. i shopped this time for me, minus the emptying purse. and i am gleamingly happy.

let's celebrate love

2006-12-05T16:12:00.001+08:00

love is in the air
too thick to cut by tears

tears of joy, tears of sorrow

is outgrown out of love whilst indeed painful bleeds you to the past

for the winding journey is just another route of a courageous life

flamed with passion, bravering the destiny

it's not the end that matters

it's the journey that paint your life

promising the bright future which shadowed the dark patches

with the value that has brought you to this far

for love need to be celebrated

in silent pride, in loud bliss

for what you became today, is what you choose

to be in the arms of your soulful half

i'm blessed by his overwhelming love

look ahead of you for the future
look ahead of you for the new seeds of love

innate in you as a resemblance of passion of life

happy anniversary my love. may you look back with pride for the enriching path you have been taking

+ my overwhelming dosage of love today non other was very much inspired by the latest malay movie "cinta". watched with dust mite at the curve. hhmmm... just like mine, what a bittersweet romance. as usual, i wet my blouse's collar+

what is in the name of fine dining?

2006-12-01T23:28:00.001+08:00

when you don't see the finest things in life..
when the luxury of life impress you no more
in a well set ambiance, in the backdrop of the piano
witnessed by the gazing star
the star shines bright
at the roof top view of the panoramic city
nothing seems to tickle you..not anymore

i need a fresh pair of eyes. too see things in a new way, in a new meaning, from the same soul of me... ZZzzzz..

had a nice fine dining at kl tower. what a shame when it doesn't impress you much. too tired of work or too tired of life? i guess, i'm too tired of working with the people..?

my new vocabulary of life?

2006-11-21T22:05:00.001+08:00

distasteful life
lackluster
where the hope is camouflaged with disinterest
when love is no more the catalyst
what is left for me to depend
is only myself

i hate everyone but for myself

the turning episode of my dear life

2006-11-13T09:13:00.001+08:00

numb, my heart is numb. it doesn't bleed nor pumping for joy. emotionless, no fear. the only caption that was playing in my mind when i walked out from that room is, 'yes, life is not a bed of roses, at least for me'. it is indeed proven to be true by the one once against my saying, but is apparently the one who actually proved me right. no blooming roses left for me to hope for. vowed to myself, no matter what, i'll be staying true to myself to manage all this. God has brought me this far, he won't abandoned me now..

love myself dearly, 9.23 am

**********************************

the clarification session had explained the situation. nothing can mend a broken heart, but leaving you puzzled in the dark do no justice to you either. after almost 3km sad walk around the park in the mid afternoon, some of the pressing questions were addressed, at least partially. though the good conversation we had, reflected an agreement in addresing the issue on top of the endless guilt for the situation, things happen for a reason, aka the driving factor or motivation. we are matured adult, admit to your mistake & be accountable to stand for it, be at every reason. what had happen cannot be erased, at the minimum taking a fresh step forward may bring a new faith in life. what i've discovered is nothing new, what i've discovered is of no surprise. what i learnt has always be an enriching life experience. at least, in my quest to improve my self. i'm grateful to be given the light to see things maturely and objectively. as i grow, i realised i'm wiser to think for an action, with all the consequences being weigh and thoroughly beigh thought of..

as always, love yourself dearly, 3.58 pm

*******************************************

before sleep, had a long chat. nor grateful nor regret.. my heart soften despite the eternal question of why in the first place it happened. dilemma to know the full picture yet unprepared for the truth, i have nothing to loose with the consequences that may be pinning my life. i' m glad the resolution has been reached. i admit, i'm just being difficult to some extent, to exert my dissatisfaction and 'girl power' entertwined with my soft pity emotion. but, i find it self rewarding. forever in love with your true self, 12.10 am

raya sakan di kb

2006-10-31T13:37:00.002+08:00

my last trip to kota bharu was when we went for cuti sekolah with ayah. as i normally don't sleep during a long ride, my 8 hours ride brought back the memories i had back then with our mitsubishi gallant. ayah and mak memang kaki jalan, so we stayed at the hotel close to pasar malam, where we would walk across the road to enjoy the local kelantanese delicacies.

+sparks of joy from the smugled (?) bunga api ala klcc and mercun bom (?)+

i'm blessed to have a good chemistery with my group in kelantan. everyone is a real shopper with big appetite for exotic food. though, i vowed to myself not to get carried away for the planned batik shopping spree, i couldn't lie to myself. the night before, i tried to sleep early as the chief de mission a.k.a mummy zan reminded everyone to rise early for nasi roket breakfast and tawaf pasar for batik.

+songket samping worth RM20,000 popular amongst the royal elites, kain tudung bawal+

the moment i panjat tangga batu of bazar siti khadijah, i melt immediately to see kain tenun songket bunga tabur in rich dark green at the displayed mannequin. flashes of 'dokor-tiga-beradik-perak' that i had been eyeing for at semua house ran through my mind. in split minutes, i bought it for rm 350, in grey with gold pucuk rebung motif to complement dust mite's grey baju melayu. that marked the beginning of my shopping spree that day, that ripped me off close to rm800++. we spent half day each for two days, browsing and shopping from shop to shop. in group, we spent close to rm 4000 only for those few hours, which i guess, enough to contribute to the gdp growth for negeri kelantan. other than my 4-metre songket, i also bought batik silk for man's shirt, matching batik chiffon blouse with silk pareo, white raga bag, kaftan for mak, cotton blouses, tali pinggang besi for my silk sarong, kain batik to match my copper lace top and other few pieces of less expensive fabrics.

+rombongan che zan with their mission accomplished, far beyond target+

on top of this shopping madness, the the climax has yet to come until we went out that night for 'soup gearbox with roti canai' supper. since i am the only herbivor like neer, i opted for roti canai telur instead. others, went 'drunk' slurping their way to the last drop of their steamy soup, with spoon and straw of course.

even on my way back home to kl, i managed to gather new set of to-buy-list items for my next trip to kota bharu. neither not sure whether i'm in real need of those nor i am just a big spender, somehow deep inside it does reflect how i enjoyed the trip and can never get enough out of it. furthermore, who could resist of few new presents given by the families as part of local culture in welcoming new member to the family.. should i elaborate more?

my tragic raya in taiping

2006-10-30T12:04:00.001+08:00

menu raya has always been consistent for the past 2 years - nasi impit kuah kacang, rendang tok and rendang masak hitam. what differs this year apart from eta yang masak rendang hitam instead of mak, was having everyone on the eve of raya for the last buka puasa. moreover, eta tak set rambut berjam jam this year, so less nagging from mak.

+in wait for buka puasa, especially for aizat and aiman yang puasa penuh+

yearly ritual will see me, abang and eta finishing off our hard-earned money for bunga api and mercun. after the declaration of war to kick off the event, the session started with the prelude by the munchkins aka amir, aiman, aizat and syabil playing with the bunga api under the supersion of suraya, eta and kak azie. abang will normally act as the mediator to resolve any dispute amongst the little ones whilst controlling the outflow of our mercun inventory. i replenished my last year mercun stock from pasar ramadhan keramat. out of curiousity, the guy showed us the atomic-smuggled-looking-home-made mercun shaped like coconut to impress us. but i don't have the guyts to buy 'em, rather spent on a new pair of matching selendang raya. the loudest and the brutalest mercun we had was only the mercun telur, humble looking cherry, cute but loud enough to put any ayam kampong a heart attack. more so, to retaliate our opponent, budak kampung or pak cik mat, the retired neighbour.

+munchkins with bunga api+

i woke up early for early preparation for juadah raya. as usual, me and balang kueh raya has always been a yearly affair. susun kueh raya, filled them up so that i don't have the excuse of finishing them of by myself. i'm also the person accountable for the cakes like last year. thus, i'm proud to show off my collection of kek lapis ranging from kek lapis sarawak (embun, bunga api, spiderweb and pelangi) to kek lapis betawi. potong pun kedekut, especially aiman and aizat yang kuat makan. right after khutbah raya "kemenangan untuk siapa?", i rushed back home to get myself changed into my new moral of the story ; always have spare t-shirts, plain cloth and bottled water for emergency use whenever you're on long distance or on a winding journey. unfortunately for the poor new car, never expected it will happen this soon. pesak gantung polos ; mysterious deep purple silk complemented with silver beaded lace. he..he... overly sensitive material, nak duduk pun seksa.

tetamu wajib, budak budak kampung batu 6 or as far as from bukit gantang tak ramai yang datang. more so, all of us went for the sembahyang raya, leaving no entertainers for them to shout 'assalamualaikum' in front of your house gate as early as 9.30 am. maybe also because of the heavy downpour from asar to isya' restricting people to move about for raya visit.

+tatkala makyang, aizat & syabil bergembira posing, min still with his famous muncung mogoknya. no worries, bribe him with air jagung, his face will light up in no time+

that in a way encouraged us to escape to penang the next day for the mee ketam and pasembor padang kota. unfortunately, none of the mee ketam/udang owner is in the mood for business, leaving us touring the whole penang island from balik pulau to teluk bahang. the peak of our tour started when aizat felt dizzy and poured his whole whole breakfast-brunch-lunch worth of solid margerine, pulut and nasi on the car seat, missed by few second before we managed to save him. what can i say, the next 1 hour saw us wiping, cleaning the seat. i had no choice but to stripped him off as his whole shirt and pants were in a mess. the moment i passed him the umbrella to cover himself from the drizzling rain and from the public view of cars passed by, i can't fight an eye with him. his innoncent guilty look masked by his mischieviousness, aauuuwww....aunty nad memang tak sampai hati nak marah, what more to nag. nak nangis ada lah. nevermind, we drove to catch the suraya with min at the back of my seat, smiling ear to ear giving ha-ha-tak-tau kindalook. somehow, the cherry of our peak tour has yet to come until min uttered ' nak gi toilet'. before we managed to pull over, min pun muntah at the other side of the seat. what a day! i guess, that justified the 3 plates of pasembor padang kota we had after all the cleaning up other than from neutralising the tragedy. and i bought doraemon wallet for aizat for him to keep his duit raya. how cute!

for you i will (confidence)

2006-10-20T16:55:00.001+08:00

Album : Underage Thinking
Year : 2006

Alright, yeah
I'm wandering the streets, in a world underneath it all
Nothing seems to be, nothing tastes as sweet
As what I can't have
Like you and the way that you're twisting your hair round your finger
Tonight I'm not afraid to tell you
What I feel about you
Oh, I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
and cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will, For you I will
Forgive me if I st-stutter
From all of the clutter in my head
Cuz I could fall asleep in those eyes
Like a water bed
Do I seem familiar, I've crossed you in hallways a thousand times
No more camouflage
I want to be exposed, and not be afraid to fall
Oh, I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
And cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence
I have For you I will
You always want what you can't have
But I've got to try
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will, For you I will, For you I will
For you If I could dim the lights in the mall
And create a mood (yeah)
I would Shout out your name so it echos in every room Yeah
That's what I'd do,
That's what I'd do to get through to you,
yeah I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
And cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
You always want what you can't have
But I've got to try I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will, For you I will, For you I will

takkan ada cinta yang lain

2006-10-15T01:52:00.001+08:00

Haruskah kuulangi lagi
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Keraguanmu itu , susahkan hatimu

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Akupun takut kehilangan, dirimu

Ingatkah satu bait kenangan
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Akankah nanti
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Bukalah mata hatimu...

ramadan and me

2006-10-12T13:11:00.001+08:00

year in year out, my ramadan definition has always being defined as 'tarawikh' and the ultra healthy meal a.k.a low carb high protein diet. my generic meal will be popiah basah, pecal & kuah kacang, sata and ayam percik. this year is just a little different. since i'm obliged to take rice to avoid any unintended false accusation, a small scoop suffice to provide me energy throughout the day. sahur will see me fighting to shut the alarm clock every 4.30 am and taking a big gulp of plain water. unlike dust mite with his routine rice meal, the world will see me sailing smoothly into my dream after a quick refuelling transit. if the world is lucky, they will see me having mixed oatmeal and cereal over a mug of hot milo and anlene chocolate flavored milk (with sprinkle of Nescafe, yummy & gooey!). for a quick fix, few dates are enough to satisfy me anyhow.

but, let me set the record straight here. i rarely take rice for sahur. in fact, i rarely wake up for sahur. which i think is no big deal. the last time i normally had a propoer meal was when ayah was around, which was like a decade ago. fine, with all the munchkin aiman, syahmi, syabil and the almighty aizat, sahur has now back into its limelight. i'm more 'teruja' to watch them eating with their messy hair and their "muka bantal" than drag myself eating.

perhaps, the scenario may change someday. given a new circustances, when the world is run out of cocoa for a mug of Milo, or Datuk Sharizat launch a mandatory campaign to promote " Sahur Sekeluarga Titik Permulaan Keluarga Bahagia", i shall then consider having a complete meal during the breaking of dawn.